Insomnia.

yr liver?

im so bored & i cant sleep

have u tried listening to any chillwave

should have taken ambien with you

have u tried listening to any chillwave

yes, i am listening to c.wave right now

its p great

still not tired tho

wtf

i think i need ambien

the over-the-counter shit just makes me super groggy unless I sleep for like 13 hours

i've never taken sleeping pills, and i don't think i'd consider it now. but i've been sleeping only 3 -- 4 continuous hours a night for the past few days, and it's wearing me out.

have gone to this really strange sleep pattern of like 4 hours a night no matter how tired i am, which usually means napz and/or tiredness during the day

wow xp!

I think my brain hates me. Sometimes my thoughts will be dull as dishwater throughout the day when I need to be *creative* for work and such & then my imagination will go into hyperspeed when I'm trying to chill 4 sleepytime.

My solution for this (aside from lol booze) used to be to work at night, but sleeping all day just makes me feel like a deadbeat.

Thank god for planet earth/blue planet box set!

Going to stay awake until tomorrow evening, hopefully that'll make me sleep tomorrow night.

Planet earth has been there for me in moments of need for sure. Also Natl Geo docs on netflix streaming.

Wish i had Nat Geo on tap like that!

WHAT UP

me

i am up

i should be sleeping

the sleeping pill does nothing and i'm grindin my teeth and i'm hungry but aint got no food left in the house for a snack

why am i awake wtf

i don't sleep i drink coffee instead

Going to bed at 11, waking up at one, going back to sleep at four-ish, alarm goes off at half six.

Books, headphone music and jam & bread are the coping tactics now. Have given up on just lying there thinking 'I'm not asleep' and maybe getting angry.

this should not be happening
i felt alright for the last few nights, felt relaxed today
then i went to bed and read read read, no tired
then i just lost my tired and listened to "vuh" for 20 min, sounded like the inside of my head so i couldn't drift off
then i said fuck it and got up to see if having a snack and doodling on the internet could make me tired

...still here

i just hope to be in bed by 1, asleep shortly after
big presentation tomorrow :( (no wonder i'm awake)

yeesh, good luck. this especially happens when i've got big stuff the next day. even when i think i'm not worried about it it worms it's way in my head. so bogus.

i'm only up cuz i'm in the middle of 4 days off so wheee why not. i'm usually out by 9pm so this is like hour infinity to me right now. very @_@

that reminded me of a conversation i overheard between a woman and her child negotiating candy at the movie theather

mom, i want squirms
you are not eating squirms
MOM I WANT TO EAT SQUORMS

they're like radioactive gummi worms or something, i dunno

oh here they are
http://www.sqworms.com/images/img-1.png

i am now working nights again (until 2am). i try to get to sleep by 4:30 or so, but last night/morning i was up until 8.

h8 birds btw

and doodling on the internet *never* makes you tired

the only really useful trick i learned during my year or so of severe insomnia:

get into bed! don't do anything! get as comfy as you can, close your eyes and think about pleasant, enjoyable things. just try to relax. even if you don't actually sleep, just getting a few hours of total relaxation is good and will leave you feeling better in the morning.

wait do they glow
xxp

justine is right btw.

tho sometimes fifteen minutes of fresh air to clear thoughts and ~then~ justine's advice is good.

sometimes this is good! but more often than not i get antsy/uncomfortable

xps

dunno if they glow, they must be powerful good because this kid was hell bent on eating some sqworms

so far i tried hypnotic music, sleeping pills, and counting sheep. also tried relaxation above described when those failed but now i am more agitated about the fact that i am not asleep than i am about the presentation.

lately my crackity sleep problems are manifesting themselves as work-related nightmares. every night, all last week. and now this week. up an hour early, every day.

usually music helps but i already tried that and got too wrapped up in the music
reading was a failure
might try netflix on phone in bed?

work dreams are the worst!! it's like not sleeping at all.

the worst is when you dream a very plausible scenario of how your day really could go wrong. AND THEN IT DOES.

Maybe you should consult with a sqworm when you have these work-related issues.
http://www.sqworms.com/images/img-2.png

omg he can fix anything.

wait, a helmet?

but now i am more agitated about the fact that i am not asleep

this was always my undoing.

...with trivial pursuit pie/hazmat symbol and a lightning bolt!

i like that he has a wee chin

going to try to go to bed now

suerte a todos

goodnight/luck!

Ugh. Mosquito bite. All itchy and sweaty (allergy, idk?), fetched the mosquito repellant thing, now awake at 2am, hearing cats fight in the street, a far away train, someone up the road who also has his/her window open at night coughing. Meh. Alarm goes off in less than 4 hours. Ok, let's see if I turn this thing off and at least try to sleep.

being itchy sucks, i'm sorry.

in other insomnia news:
maybe you think this is fruity, but i started acupuncture today to treat insomnia/migraines/stress/anxiety and i am really excited about it. i love the practitioner, and she totally speaks my language. i like the idea of channeling harmful energy away from my head and out of my feet, but i guess only time will tell if this is going to be effective for me.
has anyone else tried this?

well shit

in case anyone cares, the acupuncture (combined with an herbal extract formula) has been working out pretty well for me. i don't feel drastically ~different~, it has only been a week, but there have been a lot of moments where i would have freaked out (anxiety not so lol imo) but i'm just takin' it cool, like "this thing will be tough, but it's not going to get to me" this is REALLY NEW for me.

it's kinda like i am wearing a coat of armor that i didn't have before. next few weeks are set to be ROUGH, so even if it's magical thinking, it's working.

slept well 6 nights out of the last 7

6 out of 7 is a winning score!! Are you refreshed and revitalized?

Hmmm...yes? I mean, I feel calm and prepared. That's way better than manic and crazy/exhausted and irritable.

Anyone itt tried amitriptyline? I went to my GP and asked for Ambien and she refused to prescribe it and gave me this instead.

I've said it before and I'll say it again. Seroquel. You might have to lie to your doctor and say you are crazy to get it but it is the only thing that works. I crush mine up because a whole pill will cause you to sleep 14 straight hours.

I can't sleep. I think I'm just stressed but it's not very nice. I feel like crying.

*hugs* sorry to hear, E. I think you need some tea, a back massage & a pep talk!

Exhaustion can be totally tear inducing even without stress. Can you give yourself some relaxation time over the weekend?

Xpost

Yeah I need all those things and I'll def have time to relax over the weekend. I'm just overly tired and frustrated and, like I said, stressed. It'll pass. Going to try to sleep again now though. I think I can, I think I can, I think I can etc.

i thought i was tired when i got home tonight, but i'm still winding down. i also thought the two strong g&ts would knock me out, but apparently i have some rock & roll left in me.

aw e <3 hope u fell asleep