your august september october november december 2014 fucking ten

jumping into revived C/D thread conversations to say "dud"
asking for what i want
sharing kewl articles on facebook
feeling butch lifting weights and running
feeling butch wearing shirt and tie to work
listening to robert hood trax v loud
really good pad thai for lunch at this place like every day
being sober
being way more present and caring interacting w/ my people
body positivity

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it's a unicode character dawg, quit fucking it up or you'll never amount to anything on here

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ridic j/k if it wasn't clear

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-mint iced green tea with a little lemonade (not quite an "arnold palmer")
-having a little money to play around with, even though some of it has to go to vet bills
-fitting into old jeans that i'm glad i held on to
-this stew i made with chicken pieces, san marzanos, yellow tomatoes, mushrooms, mirepoix
-sent in two queries for paid blogging/researching jobs
-starting to get a little more enthused about FYF Fest as an actual music festival
-going to a colorist tomorrow, gonna do something about this mousy brown flecked with grey

(that's it for now)

(sorry for all the "a little" in that post. it's hot and i woke up super-early to transcribe a 55-minute interview.)

mma
dirt bikes
coors
yg
f350s
weeding the garden
weed
baskin robbins chocolate milkshakes

This is a Radiohead thread, right?

- I am now below 185lbs for the first time in forever
- Top floor of the house just about done.
- The Muffs' new album.
- Completely demoralized by current non-job situation
- Solved one creative blockage but made another worse
- Can I have at least one day where the plumbing cooperates!
- Can I have at least one day where depression doesn't make me catatonic!
- "Big City" by The Maples - http://site.douban.com/themaples/
- Gilbert Gottfried's podcast. The best replacement for vintage public access television
- Late night Vietnamese food in Westminster

late-night vietnamese food sounds wonderful. the eastern sfv has a giant vietnam-shaped hole in it. i think there's something in burbank but the options are pretty dire.

-"full sour" pickles (can you even get these outside of NYC? what's considered sour in los angeles, even at the serious delis, is pretty tame by my standards)
-no-nonsense/impatient/shouty new yorkers, warming the cockles of my heart since 1976
-my parents' refrigerator has an ICE MAKER. this should go on the "people who have figured out how to live" thread.
-going to a john lurie art show tomorrow. mad jealous of how GOOD this guy is at everything: music, painting, weird little TV shows, even twitter.
-missing the family cat, who left this earth about a year and a half ago -- the place doesn't feel the same without him.
-how ugly/dirty/dismal NYC subway stations are, even after the rest of the city has been a privatized gilded palace

late-night vietnamese food sounds wonderful. the eastern sfv has a giant vietnam-shaped hole in it. i think there's something in burbank but the options are pretty dire.

Thanh My (closes at 2:30am on weekends!) has been the goto place. There are others on the "to check out" list, but we haven't been to them yet because Thanh My has been so great.
http://www.yelp.com/biz/thanh-my-restaurant-westminster

- staying in my garret
- suffering from terrible allergies
- having cars towed from the lot where I work without a second thought
- americano not drip
- black metal not doom

(... part two coming on the next album)

10 how Kate Bush is just blowing everybody's shit away <3
9 I award The Eternal (Sonic Youth 2011) four stars, several years late. Solid.
8 uh, the weather doesn't suck yet? idk
7 B.
6 (redacted)
5 internet fwends
4 not being sick, or not *very* sick anyway
3 A.
2 walking a dog around a pond at 6 am
1 pie

lunch at this place like every day

^ proper nomenclature imo, m.p. obv. swimming in the flow of life

(Um. 2009.)

btw

- Completely demoralized by current non-job situation
- Can I have at least one day where depression doesn't make me catatonic!

feelin u elvis, and i'm just holding on to not making a living w/ the job i DO have, for some reason my employer has no time for my own catatony

in that spirit

FUCKING TEN

- string quartets resonating through my corner of the building in the transparent fall air
- ishmael, his hypos up
- refinements to egg scrambling technique
- sprint thru itunes library to make list of candidates for favorite songs showed a remarkable degree of settling in past ~20 years, perennials now standing out clearly, solid but ephemeral likes subsiding to mere biographical curiosities
- o another day on which i have a thought, precious and vitalizing
- and then another
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- the generative, traces of, left visible
- magic back pay from last year's work will soon appear in my account thanks to the eventual conclusion of excessively protracted union/management negosh
- the best of my few remaining friends, the most generous and genuine, took me grocery shopping, and paid, and my cupboards are now full of food, a staggeringly expensive amount of food, necessities and happy frivolous food too

1 pie

otm. and, hi!

hiya, crut!

- the generative, traces of, left visible

also otm

no one gives a shit (good version)
dogs i go past
great basin national park in october
still broke but spending "better"
making all my food on the weekend
office paper photos printed and hung in cubicle of: pharoah sanders, laurie anderson, wilhelm reich, gilles deleuze, friedrich nietzsche post-breakdown (surprised by photos of nietzsche for some reason), spinoza (a painted portrait obv.), jacques derrida looking grumpy, jacques lacan, sigmund freud (last two also grumpy), bell hooks, isaac babel and sergei eisenstein in a field, the mao quote that zizek riffs on, zizek in a boat wanting to fuck mitch, benjamin next to klee painting, bell hooks quote, anti-oedipus graphic thing, benjamin angel of history quote, karl marx, foucault w books, isaac babel arrest photo, sun ra, pauline oliveros w accordian, morton feldman again, maryanne amacher demonstrating something next to dayton's budget rent-a-car, benjamin in library, alice coltrane, frankfurt school looking old and grumpy
more tropical storm remnants this weekend
feeling bulky and fit at the same time
apples
not giving a shit (good version)

- being easy on myself
- putting half and half in my coffee
- staying hydrated
- zorak, lone locust mantis of the (a)pocalypse.
- kenneth faried dancing after team usa fiba championship victory
- the film "in the loop"
- toyota supra (mark ii and mark iii)
- tom tolbert
- endless piles of balled up receipts
- sandy denny

getting the soundcard/patch bay for my computer fixed so I can record some sweet metal and dance tracks
drink local IPAs
Michi Ramen with my son
riding out crazy changes at work with a zen attitude and minimal emotional attachment
praying for rain to keep my yard somewhat alive
continue improving my Magic: The Gathering skills
absorb more new music
planning a Godzilla-themed halloween party
make sure to read more
be more patient and slower to anger

writing songs
keeping a cool head
black tea instead of coffee
eating foods that alleviate my stomach pains e.g. greek yogurt
meticulously curating elaborate spotify playlists for myself
learning more about art and film
travelling!
demons
friendship???
just doing whatever

Nice socks
Greek sculpture
Soft-serve frozen yoghurt
Seeking out the best falafel in a variety of European cities
Making some kind of attempt to learn basic Ukrainian ahead of visit next month
Taking some time off work
Learning to delegate
Little Toller books
Rachmaninov
Watching rubbish on Netflix

new apartment
new job
working towards making new music
staring at pics of old synths on ebay (rly crushing on yamaha cs5 and emu II)
planning on making room into my winter fortress (loft bed, bookshelves, comfy music listening area)
bruno schulz's "cinnnamon shops"
obsessively listening to eliane radigue
the hundred thousand songs of milarepa
reviving my mostly latent buddhist practice in general, hoping to take refuge vows soon
quit weed and alcohol, don't miss it

jogging when my shins don't hurt
organizing NES games in OpenEmu on mac
Prime World Defenders on iOS
eating fresh food from my yuppie CSA
Black Sails on Starz
online webcomic Crawdads Welcome by Ezra Butt and the bound editions that just arrived
Ken Burns' The Roosevelts on PBS
Lecrae's Anomaly album, go figure
Old video game magazines from Dayo
making clay cups with busts of acorn weevils

1) finally over (?) the cold i had that lasted a month
2) soup, pretty much any kind that's not borscht
3) weird al polka medleys, esp the one from this year
4) the 1981 hungarian psych animation son of the white mare
5) six million dollar man and bionic woman reruns on cozi-tv
6) the cool '70s USSR wristwatches for sale on ebay
7) birthday on sunday! getting older is no fun, but at least i can celebrate the milestone.
8) the leather jacket i found for $10 at a thrift store on fairfax (it's bikery and stylish, not some divorced-dad bullshit from the mall)
9) hirokazu yamada's kozan LP
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(#10 left blank in memory of Michael Brown)