Insomnia.

i rarely if ever nap. even when i was at my most sleep deprived (elisabeth basically keeping me up for a YEAR). now, having mild panic attacks and elisabeth still waking up, have deprived me of sleep. not as bad as ¨*that* horrendous year but still.... not good for general mood. :-(

the worst is actually apnea though: you THINK you are sleeping enuff but you aren't of course. so you kinda get mad: BUH BUH i am having eight hrs of sleep and more!

i was up forever and finally took 1/2 valium and eventually fell half asleep and then overslept in the morning. i have to be up at 5 tomorrow. it's gonna suck trying to go to bed tonight!

the worst thing about insomnia is how everything you think you have a handle on comes back and slaps you in the face every time you try to close your eyes and makes you more and more stressed out about not sleeping AND all the other shit in your life so that you're even less likely to sleep!

the nap i'm gonna take in like five minutes is a really bad idea

theresa, stop describing my sleepless nights! :-)good luck w sleep. wish i cld give you some hot milk and read you a bedtime story. :-)

aw, thanks.
last night i drank hot tea and watched some opera and then i got in bed and POOF awaakkkeeee forever. sigh.

Woke up at 4 this morning and couldn't get back to sleep, rolled out at 5 and watched the sky get light. When I wake up because I'm too hot, I can never get back to sleep -- my thoughts start racing around too fast for me to beat them into submission.

Why is it always 4? It feels like it.

Whyyyy are there city workers with leaf blowers outside my window at 2:30 am

yyyyyyy

as sono as i lie down i start to get irritable aches and pains in shoulders, ankles, wherever. never a twinge when i'm upright, but the merest niggle when i'm tryin to sleep will keep me awake for hours.

I CAN'T FUCKING SLEEP

abt four hours in the last three days

i keep not being able to fall asleep til 4 :(

sup

the worst thing about insomnia is how everything you think you have a handle on comes back and slaps you in the face every time you try to close your eyes and makes you more and more stressed out about not sleeping AND all the other shit in your life so that you're even less likely to sleep!

― tehresa, Friday, October 23, 2009 2:57 PM (4 months ago) Bookmark

so incredibly OTM, i spend about an hour each night tossing and turning thinking of everythingihavetodothenextdayandthedayafterandaweekfromnowandafglkkdfnlgh

oh damn. i stopped being insomniac about the time i passed into my 20s. I had been a gloomy-teen and the lightening in my mood and subsequent decrease in angst and despondency that happened around this time must have been responsible for my being able to sleep soundly at night. Since then i have had the luck of being a straight-as-his-head-hits the pillow type guy, at least while being gainfully employed and keeping busy.

i've had 9 hours sleep roughly since Sunday and i'm fucking cracking-up. The way it has been working is: first night i just couldn't get to sleep, i went to work to tell them that i didn't think i was fit but that i wasn't ill, i was sent home, i managed to sleep for about or 4 hours at about 10am; next night i fell asleep around 11 for an hour and a half, dozed occasionally throughout the rest of the night; last night i went to bed at around 9pm, read a little and fell asleep about quarter to 10, i woke up around 11.30pm completely sound asleep and didn't return to sleep until 2.30am, awaking at 5.30am - the dreaded alarm clock.

The fact that the alarm woke me this morning, and not just my crazy brain, gives me some hope: perhaps i would have had a long, effective sleep if it hadn't disturbed me. Another reason for optimism is that I've just gone and played fives and so i'm fairly tired from the exercise, though not totally mentally-exhausted please-god-let-me-sleep tired, also i will be able to stay in bed basically for the next 12 hours before having to get up to go to work. This all adds up to me daring to posit that this may be my (relatively) lucky night; however, i just know that if it isn't i'm going to totally lose it.

i feel so sorry for anyone who is afflicted with this on a regular basis! what a fucking hassle!

my tiredness can be shown by missing out a 3, saying sound asleep when i meant its antonym "wide-awake".

i find that if i know i have to get up in 5,4,3 hours, i can't sleep for the life of me. while if i know i can sleep in, or i've got 7,8,9,10 or more hours before i _have_ to get up, i relax and am out like a light.

not sleeping enough sucks. i get winded walking two blocks, my balance (literally) is off, i have a hard time thinking of simple words. probably not doing good things to my brain long-term either.

NYT re the possibility that your internal clock needs resetting and can be adjusted to sleep normally, using light exposure...???

weird.

i got over my insomnia. although the night i posted what i did upthread i had a terrible sleep because i developed a cold and had short feverish periods of sleep punctuated with waking up coughing and spluttering and having to blow my nose. i've slept 10 and 12 hours respectively the last two nights - i know this is too much and ideally i wouldn't be doing so but ... feels so fucking good!

hate you so much

NYT re the possibility that your internal clock needs resetting and can be adjusted to sleep normally, using light exposure...???

― Ask foreigners and they will tell you the gospel comes from America. (Laurel), Thursday, April 22, 2010 9:02 PM (1 month ago) Bookmark

hmm so I wonder how much staring at the bright, bright screen of my macbook before going to sleep has to do with this. ugh

a lot. i stopped looking at screens for two hours before bedtime and it helped a load.

http://www.humbledmba.com/become-a-morning-person-how-to-end-insomnia-f

AGAIN. And I have a sick dad who can't sleep either

:(

you can skip church, i'll write you a slip

Trying to work out if putting a film on is a good or a bad idea. Something kind of ok that I won't switch off but won't get mad into either that way I might pass out after half an hour.

i would suggest you do a crossword, but uk crosswords are insane. pretty sure you shouldn't be on the computer if you wanna fall asleep tho

Aye probably right re computer use. Gonna watch Alex Reid get his ass kicked in MMA then try to go to bed again.

great idea

h8 this :/

I'm getting a sleep study done tomorrow night, in which I will sleep, and serious people in white coats with clipboards will study.

Not expecting much beyond "wow, you kind of suck at this, don't you?"

AND clipboards, jesus. The coats will just have, I dunno, pockets. Buttons. Usual coat things. Maybe name tags?

Oh fuck it i have made an even bigger mess of my grammar. Let's just take that sentence out behind the shed and put it down; it's for the best, really.

Just got discharged from the sleep center and can't help but feel it was a massive fucking waste of time. During the course of the overnight study, I learned that, surprise surprise, it is impossible for a chronic insomniac to fall asleep with a splitting headache, tubes up both nostrils and electrodes that keep falling off and needing to be re-gooped. I then had to stay most of today for a multiple sleep latency test- stuck in a room for about ten hours with a brief opportunity to nap every two hours. Apparently if you enter REM sleep too quickly that's indicative of narcolepsy.

In any case, I get the results in two weeks.

Just got a call from my doctor's office; they want to see me ASAP about the results of the study and won't tell me anything over the phone. Oh yes, that's reassuring.

yes sir i am afraid you have SLEEP CANCER

there is nothing we can do

i have been having big sleep problems recently - i tend to wake up around 4am every night and find it near impossible to go back to sleep. its partly, i think, to do w a problem i've been having with a shoulder i strained playing badminton a few months ago - i generally wake up with an aching arm, neck and shoulder. my main ray of hope at present is that today i finally got an appointment confirmed for some physio, which i'm hoping will help. but at present i'm kinda constantly tired, sleepwalking through days and actually dreading going to bed; it doesn't help that i'm very busy with freelance work, so really chill or take any time off. ugh.

Just realized that the lack of information is probably just a HIPAA thing. I still don't know how to feel about this, though...either a) the tests were inconclusive/negative in which case I'm back at square one or b) I actually do have a legitimate problem, something can be done about it, and I'm getting something done about ten years too late. Either way, tomorrow should be just awesome emotionally, like a unicorn pooping candy straight into my brain.

Good luck Tt - hope it's slightly bad news with a guaranteed cure.

trying to fall asleep to Frasier, again.

i know i'll wake up at 5am and not get back to sleep again. groan

good luck TT

Gah, I hope everything is okay, TT.

I don't really have insomnia very often, I just have 'can't fall asleep'. Once I'm actually there I'll sleep for 12 hours easily. And then hate my body clock even more.

Just out of the doctor's office. Definitely not sleep apnea, probably not narcolepsy (the genetic test was negative), they basically kind of shrugged and gave me a prescription for Nuvigil and a referral to a psychologist for sleep-related counseling. Because clearly I need more pills and therapy, that's worked out well so far.

fucking shit

TRAZODONE

fell asleep at 2, woke up at 5:20, great!

Had a friend share the bed last night, slept really easily. I just need a girlf apparently. That's nice.

i have this