Mid-Life Crisis

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my midlife challenge appears to be learning to give less of a fuck about the vast majority of things and more of a fuck about a few key things. Easier said than done, as it turns out.

The main 'life lesson' that you learn as you get older is "you can't get one-up on life" - i.e. you don't ever arrive at a fixed position where you can say I now have a stable and content frame of mind from which now onwards I'll deal with life. Everything changes over time.

This is OTM. All through my twenties I had some notion that I would finally arrive; that there'd be some point in my life where I'd have everything all worked out and there'd be some blissful karmic balance in everything I'd achieved in relation to where I'd be. But that's not how life works and in a way, I wouldn't want it to be.

i turn 50 in two months. What I find striking is just how ephemeral and elusive "life" - in whatever way you want to interpret it with whatever philosophical tools you prefer - actually is. You'll never have it all worked out because it's all a moving target. Stay static for too long and eventually you'll notice that the world around you will turn into something you're not used to.