The new rolling ILX parenting thread, since the other one was getting unwieldy

I don't have a maternal bone in my body at the age of 34. I like kids, I'm completely in awe of people who have them and have made a success of it, but have *never* had the desire to actually bear one of my own. I do find myself thinking that I'd be quite good at this mothering thing, but I just don't have this thing in me that makes me think I have to actually do it. Am I going to have a massive, too-late, life-changing desire to do this in December when I turn 35?

Doubt it.

I think what your describing is more a matter of personality than anything to do with age or children's age.

Quite possibly. The funny part is that Dad used to be accused of acting no older than nineteen as recently as ten years ago.

PP - I think you're totally onto something. Like I said upthread, my Mom turned 39 right after she had me. She'll be 69 this year and she's amazingly young for age. I honestly believe (and so does she) that it has something to do with the fact that she had me (her only) later in life. She even looks fantastic. This pic was taken when we were both a little tipsy at my wedding last summer. It's a crap picture of me but the only one I had of her on my work computer. Does this look like a lady of nearly 70?
http://i29.photobucket.com/albums/c287/expatrica/EandMomEve.jpg

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Maybe he's overcompsenating. ;)

Am I going to have a massive, too-late, life-changing desire to do this in December when I turn 35?

Probably not - and even if you did, 35 is not "too late." It is just that some of the risks start to get higher and yes, fertility does start to drop in women. BUT we are all individuals, not statistics.

As for "feeling ready" - yeah. You might never feel ready, but it's sort of just something that you *do.* You'll be fine, Sam.

Again, you could be right PP. My mom's 53 and a total wreck. I think she keeps both feet in the grave and is just looking for a chance to have a seat.

PP, you know your parents best, but it does sound like you have a solid, plausible analysis there.

My husband's parents are completely resistant to change of any kind (they have finally gotten a computer with internet access this past week!), and they do seem older than my parents do... and maybe it's because my parents are more willing to be "in the world." My parents are maybe three years younger, but the difference is huge.

The 35 thing (in the UK at least) applies to due dates rather than conception, so if you're 34 and a quarter you're old :-P

Mrs O managed to have Megan while she was still officially Not Old, at 34 years and 9 months. We were 28 and 27 when we had Mark, our oldest. We tried the "wait until we're ready and have all the finances etc" approach but eventually decided that was never going to happen, especially with us going out 5 nights a week coz we had no kids :)

I think I agree with Ms. M. (multiple xposts)

Anyway, i think you're right, Beeps dodged the curly bullet.

Get back to us after Beeps hits puberty. My hair went from very light brown to dark brown in a year.

Infants $810
Toddlers $665
Two’s $605
Pre-K $580

OMGWTF WTF WTF. We paid $35/week (late 80s dollars) when Sarah was a baby. But four companies went together and built a daycare for their employees' kids, and one of the companies had a big not-for-profit community service arm, so they kept the costs low for the eligible employees.

Those childcare figures are dang scary. I don't see how you guys manage it.

I was 32 when Sarah was born, and I'm glad. If anything, I wouldn't have minded being a little older. If I'd had her much before that, I don't think I'd have done as good a job of parenting as I did.

Rock may feel differently. And as always, your mileage may vary.

You practically had to raise two kids, you cradle robber.

I should add - kind of agreeing with Jude in a way, sort of - I could have stood to be a few years older before beginning the parenting thing. Like maybe a year or two ago would have been good. Not that I'm complaining, but I think that sometimes older is the way to go.

In general, I think if you're younger you have more energy; if you're older you have more patience. You need both - so there's no perfect age...

I think I'm at the right age in terms of energy and patience. I just don't have whatever it is that makes me actually want to put it into practice. I'm genuinely interested in what it is that makes people take this massive decision.

That's a good question, and everyone has their own reasons. Right now I have no idea what mine were, but I may be a little frustrated because it is summer vacation and my 4 year old is pitching a fit about nothing.

If you don't think you want to have kids, definitely don't have them.

And if you're unsure, I'd be willing to loan you mine for the evening... ;)

Okay, crisis over - although J. continued her fit until she threw up. Fun!

It's hard to get my head back into my 25 year old mind, which was quite enthusiastic to get pregnant. We'd been married a couple of years and I think I took to heart the admonition from my mother that I should have my kids early (because we have a family history of ovarian cancer). I also knew we wanted more than one. The "why" of the first one is pretty hard to peg, though - I just did want one.

The "why" of the second is easier to figure: we didn't want Alex to be an only child. Less concretely, it didn't feel like our family was complete.

There are four years between my two kids - and the reason for that is that my first pregnancy was really difficult.

I miss the baby years, but I'm also really delighted to be moving into years when my kids get to be more independent. Alex is so self-entertaining. And we are able to get out a lot more than was the case with infants.

I'm genuinely interested in what it is that makes people take this massive decision.

In my case, I hadn't decided whether or not I wanted kids, but due to a lot of family stress and hassle around that time (my sister in law got married in December, two weeks later my father in law died, E. had to fly home for that, then it was Christmas and I was alone with my stepson and ... there was a lot of shit going on) and I skipped a couple pills and tried to take them later to make it up, but oops, nope, a month later the little test strip gave me two lines, and here we are 10 years later. An accident, yeah, but a happy one.

Parenting happens every day.

And SS and PP? You are going to grow old together - and THAT'S so wonderful.
let's applaud the happy family's, as well as the children!

Sometimes (maybe an awful lot of sometimes) the decision whether to have a child isn't so much made as surrendered to. "Accidental" pregnancies tend to happen when one or both partners want to have a child but can't decide when.

We actually planned. I would go off the pill. It would take three to six months for me to regain full fertility at my age (so we were told). I was about to move into a challenging, difficult promotion at my work, and we figured this would give me time to get past those first few awkward months before the addition of pregnancy.

Right. Man plans; God laughs.

As far as we could calculate later, I was pregnant within three weeks of going off the pill. So first-trimester wretchedness coincided precisely with the promotion... AND one of my reporters was killed in a car accident on the job during that time.

Is that how I would have chosen? No. Hell, I'd probably still be trying to decide, 20 years later. But it happened, and y'know, it worked out just fine.

I always heard it said that there's two things you can't wait until you're ready for or you'll never do them: building a house and having a baby.

And amen to happy families!

I always heard it said that there's two things you can't wait until you're ready for or you'll never do them: building a house and having a baby.

Hmm. I'm probably out, then.

metaphors, Ned!
also, the Rock Hardy family is a happy one!
I'm planning to hug some babies/kids in about two days. (Big family wedding).

The big debate for us is how long a gap to leave til we try for no.2. Do it soon and get the sleeplessness out of the way sooner? Or wait til H is a bit older and we've had a few decent kips? I am 30 next Sunday so time isn't too pressing, but even though I got knocked up in second month of trying, I wouldn't assume it would be that easy next time.

In other news: Howie's eczema is terrible at the moment, have new steroids and hypoallergenic cream to try, next step is a referral to the hospital. Poor lad can't stop scratching :(

But to cheer him up this afternoon, we are going to Monkey Music

I feel the time is right to start trying (I'm not quite thirty) but we keep making other plans. I came off the pill in October but then we booked a holiday for this August.

This kind of put us off a bit, we're determined to have at least one more holiday as a couple and I can't even contemplate going away and not being able to enjoy a drink.

We then talked of starting a family shortly after August, but found ourselves planning a camping tour of Scotland for next year!

I think we need to realise that starting a family does not mean the end of trips away.

At my ageI definitely was ready for a baby. Looking back now - hah, she's only 16 months - I would have preferred to be younger, maybe around 25, but I hadn't met the right person then. I feel that, although I don't consider myself old by any means, I did have a lot more energy in my mid20s compared to now. But hey you havce to have the right ingredients. So I had to wait. :-) With the second I doubted for about... Well, I didn't really. We decided when Ophelia was 12 months old. Quit the pill on her birthday - I was only back on it for two months or so - and I was pregnant immediately. WTF, right? I'm happy though! Very much so. But it's a whole other experience: I am more tired, since I have Ophelia to take care of, but I also know what I'm in for, so I feel more prepared (as if!). The only thing that worried me (aside from the health aspect) was how it would/will be with a second baby. I was (sadly) a single kid and so was my husband. So we don't have any clue as to how the dynamics are.

The daycare costs about 20 euros per day (about 26 dollars per day). That'd amount to about 670 dollars if you did the five days per week daycare thing, but we only do three days a week. I have *enrolled* for a fulltime daycare thing for the next one but I'm not sure we will. I mean, we can take care of her (if my husband's still working in the shop, he's planning to work for the goverment in the future). If my husband's still *around* (in the shop I mean) I think we might do much less, that way I can breastfeed longer and, hey, I think the first year it's much better to have your baby with you (they're not going to *mingle* with other babies much). That said, daycare is great for me since running a shop plus a baby is extremely hard. :-(

Rumpie, planning is a bit futile, in my opinion. Most people have to *try* for about half a year (and more) before having the first one. My husband and I tried for a year. That's why we were (pleasantly) surprised this time around but also had a WTF feeling. :-)

Traveling is, however, a bit more difficult. I did it twice (without my husband) and it's... well, a bit harder. Especially long plane trips. Going to Japan was easier now she was able to sit in a chair and also walk around. The first time, she was still in her crawling stage. Jetlag? Well, she did *suffer* a bit from it, but not that much. Food? Hah! She loved Japanese food. I think all in all I realize(d) that babies are far more flexible than I thought they were.

BTW my mom was 18 years old when she had me. About a good 2 months later she was 19. Looking back now I wonder how she coped. So so young. But she's a wonderful mom. Too bad my parents couldn't have any more. :-( They stopped trying around the age I am now. :-((( Apparently they were very lucky to have me. How funny in a way.

Yeah my mom was 20 and my father 18 when I was born. They definitely couldn't cope.

Sara speaks wisdom about patience and energy.

They were (strange how that may sound) VERY ready. Well, so they say in hindsight. They say they wanted me. Esp my dad wanted a kid. But sometimes I wonder if maybe this is rewriting history and maybe I was an *accident*. Does it matter now? Hell no.

About wanting to be a parent: I learned from having Ophelia that it's one thing to love children - which I did and do - and another thing to have a child (or more). It's a fulltime thing. You can't switch it off nor drop'em off if they are having a bad day. That said, maybe a strange to say this, but I'm so in love with my kid. The way she says Waaaaawa every time she sees an animal, I just fall in love all over again with her. <3

Also, man, I totally underestimated how much it costs. :-)

Speaking as an older parent of a two-year-old (I'm 42, my partner 40), my feeling is there's not a lot to be said for being older, and I do regret not having children younger.

First and foremost, there's the fertility issue. My partner had a hell of a time trying to conceive, with several miscarriages along the way. I kind of feel it's miraculous that we managed to have a child at all, and I know plenty of couples our age who weren't so lucky. Ideally, I'd have liked two kids, but that seems unlikely now.

Secondly, having children is incredibly tiring and I simply don't have the energy and physical stamina I had ten years ago. I can see it when I take my son to the park and the back twinges I get when I haul him up onto the slide or whatever, and I see the younger fathers around me who are having a better time of it.

Thirdly, there's the fact that I'll be so old when he's an adult, I won't have time to enjoy his adult life. I really appreciate the fact that, at 42, I still have my parents and they're still active and still working even. Will I even be alive when my son's 42?

I dunno, there are some benefits; I'm no doubt more patient than I was when I was younger. I don't regret not being able to go out etc., I don't feel having a child has cramped my style, as I might have ten or fifteen years ago... but in general, my advice would be if you know you want to have children, and you have a partner who also knows he/she wants children, then don't hang about. You can wait for the "right time" forever, there is no "right time", and once you have the child, you'll find you'll muddle through whatever else is going on with your life, buoyed by the love you feel for your child.

Thirdly, there's the fact that I'll be so old when he's an adult, I won't have time to enjoy his adult life. I really appreciate the fact that, at 42, I still have my parents and they're still active and still working even. Will I even be alive when my son's 42?

Yes, this is a concern for me since my mom is nearing 70 and I'm only 29. I doubt she will be around when I'm 42 but that is something that I've kind of come to terms with but who knows, she may surprise me. My Dad btw, is 6 years younger than my mom. Perhaps that kept/keeps her young too! ;-) Two of my good friends lost their young parents when they were teens so in the end anything can happen and I wouldn't dwell on it too much.

They tried to have kids for 7 years before conceiving me. It turns out that they were fertile all the long but a horrible doctor told my mother that her IUD had "passed" when it was embedded in her uterus for the entire time they were trying to conceive!!! If it weren't for that idiot Dr. they might have had kids much earlier. Then again, I might not be here if they had.

All this advice about not waiting is very interesting to hear. We'll still have to wait for a while. There is no way I can work full time, be a full time grad student, and a mom. Maybe we'll start trying when I'm finished with school which will be in about two years. Hmmmm. So many decisions!

In the meantime, I will have to make due with looking at all your ridiculously cute little ones. :-)

Well, you can be a young parent and die sooner than someone's who only had kids at the age of 40. You never know.

I'm about to be a parent for the third time and I'm almost 41. Weirdly, I feel a lot younger now than I did five years ago. And you can be 26 when your first kid is born and still have no idea how to be a parent.

Congrats on the kiddo!

I hardly need much encouragement I must admit, I'll see what happens once this holiday is over and done with.

I have a niggling feeling that my health is failing, my heart scare probably contributes to this even although the doc says that they'd rather not take any more action for the time being. I wonder if this will change when I tell him I want to conceive.

Rumpie: :-(

Ophelia just came back from the crèche. The caretaker (?) said she did very well and also added that Ophelia's a sweet girl!!!! I mean, shit, I know but I can't help but *enflate* with pride. hah

Owen in a pool for the first time:
http://farm2.static.flickr.com/1026/541586953_89ccbbd165.jpg

The boys are both sitting up on their own (never mind the cushion behind them...)
http://farm1.static.flickr.com/199/550131890_4bed8996a4.jpg

^^ great smiles! "This sitting up lark's easy! What's next?"

Megan's started pulling herself into a standing position against boxes and furniture. Stop growing up so fast! You're our last baby!

My oldest son Mark's got a karate grading tomorrow so I've got hours of being Supportive Dad. I'm a bit worried about this one as they've being getting progressively harder for him (I know: DUH!).

Then on Wednesday David's getting a prize at school and I get to be Proud Dad :)

I should scan the photo of me supposedly sitting at a very early age. Only years later did my mum admit that she was propping me up from underneath the table. Mums, eh?

In fact here it is...
http://farm2.static.flickr.com/1350/551586903_c4a8f531ef.jpg

Those legs! That smile! I just want to HUGGELZ you. :-)

http://farm2.static.flickr.com/1216/542548891_49f88d3006.jpg
Nothing much to discern (?) but this is BABY MK II. :-)

What kind of fancy scanner is that?

yeah, is it 4D?

The previous time we had an even swankier one (the salesrep brought it to test it and I was a *lucky* victim): in sepia colour we could almost *touch* the baby. Really 4D. This is one they use to test whether the brains, heart,... function properly. This way we know s/he has no "water head" (?), cleft lip, good connection with umbilical chord. It's better than the regular ones.

Hey, Nath.

What exactly is that.

This is the photo that Nathelie is commenting on in case it looks a bit weird that she says that to a photo that isn't there! Also I look so cute in it I cant resist putting it here one more time...
http://farm1.static.flickr.com/28/41222785_694e9e63f3_o.jpg

Sorry - I removed the redeye on the photo above, and Flickr changed the url. Here it is again:

http://farm1.static.flickr.com/199/550131890_3b7dd1f145.jpg

gorgeous!

Schwantz, please post cranky/screaming/crying pix also or I'll think that life is just a nonstop festival of laffs at your house.