Insomnia.

It makes me not notice what time it is. Like I think it's 1:30 or 2:00 and I look at the clock and it's like FUCK!!

The internet totally makes it worse. The passage of time anyway. That it's 4:00am right now and I am nothing even approaching tired is um...siiiigh. :(

I'm buying sleeping pills tmr.

That compulsion thing happens to me, too. You have to smack your compulsions around and show them your the boss. Give yourself a cut-off time and get in bed NO MATTER WHAT (an exception may be made if your apartment is on fire).

lol, I was so wise pre-WoW

ugh.

SO MADDENING.

You used to work graveyard (or still do), IIRC, rabies? THAT fucks with your sleep patterns a GOOD few months. Did me, anyway.

My advice is don't be able to read the time. (I know this is difficult on a computer but OTOH you can't really compute & sleep.) If you don't know what time it is, you can't do the mental math of 'shitfudge it is 4:32 am.m; I have to get up at 9:00 a.m. – if I fell asleep RIGHT NOW I would get a useless 4 hours 28 min of sleep."I can lie and be like, 'aw, it's probably 2 a.m. AT THE LATEST, I'll get enough sleep no matter when I nod off.'

This is why I have a non-glowing digital alarm clock. When I had an old-people one w/3" all green numbers, I just threw a dishtowel over it. Just so long as I can't see the time and it's dark, I'm ok.

I mean I know there's been Nights where I HAVE lied awake 4+ hours but at least I didn't have access to empirical proof & could thus easily tell myself sleepy fibs.

Yep, I used to work the graveyard for about three and a half years, but for the past few months I've been unemployed in a foreign land. I've been finding myself slipping into the old routine of staying up for hours after everyone else goes to bed, which the stress of not finding a job hasn't made any easier. Also what doesn't help is that if I stay up late enough my gf, who is still in America, will show up online (late night here=mid/late morning over there) and I get to talk to her. So there's a reward system in place for misbehavior.

I'm gradually reversing this with sleeping pills, but I'm going to have to change some bad habits (as well as get a job) if I'm going maintain a reasonable sleeping schedule.

Ugh, I totally know the 'how much sleep will I get' game. I used to do the same thing with my alarm clock. Right now the fucker's straight up unplugged, though, which has more to do with the economy of available outlets (when you're unemployed your guitar amp gets precedent over the ability to tell time lol).

how much exercise are you getting during the day? sometimes helps to wear yourself out and then you'll sleep more easily.

Very little! Something else I need to work on as well.

It's happening again. Of course this could be due to the 10.5 hours I slept last night, the 1.5 l of diet coke I've drank so far this evening or the 100000000 thoughts racing through my brane right now. kjdgbsk.

brane racing isn't half as much fun at 3.30 am as it is on the DS lite, that's for sure.

lmao

so do i blame the five cups of coffee i drank today or the energy drink i had at midnight or the brain chatter

the sunrise is v v pretty btw

the five cups of coffee i drank today

lmao

Five cups is a staggering amount of coffee, to think I used to down that much in a single day when I worked in an office. I drink three now and my shrink told me it was too much and is driving me crazy (she's wrong, of course).

Dear Insomnia,

I hate you with the intensity of a thousand white-hot suns.

~ Erica

on my 5 am shit, always

Ugh, I hate it. Think sleep might be coming soon though. Hopefully.

i try and put on a movie

Yeah, am thinking about doing that actually. Would probably work at this point.

Am snuggled in my huge ass beanbag with a blanket, my favorite pillows and some hot chocolate. Movie is on. Let's see if this works.

HAVE YOU FALLEN ASLEEP YET OR ARE YOU STILL AWAKE

I wake up between 530 and 630 am every day. At first thought it was adjusting to time change but now it's been long enough that should be adequately adjusted. Some days I can force myself back to sleep. Some days not.

Got home from CA at midnight BST, slept until 6pm Sunday. Couldn't sleep all night, it's now 8am, I have to be at work by 10am and I'm starting to feel a little tired.

Power through!

Well fuck. I fell asleep at nine and woke up at midnight but instead of rolling over and going back to bed I stayed up for a bit and am not wide awake. Almost one and I have to be up in 5.5 hours for work. This isn't good.

hi. waiting for xanax to start working, but i just took it and the long half-life means it might not kick in for a while. in my experience.

i'm deeply confusing my body atm by mixing a sleeping pill with punk rock and the need to write another 200 words for the company newsletter lol

i know atm in this case doesn't mean automated teller machine, but i'm imagining you withdrawing twenties from yourself.

with resulting strange code in his eyes

gross

Ugh. I used to be able to eat and smoke myself back to sleep, but two Boca burgers, a tall glass of milk, and two cigarettes later, I'm not sleepy. In fact, now I have extra energy to get me through the rest of this miserable zombie slog that most people call "night".

It all started when I had to get up to pee. That's all it took. There was no going back to sleep after I stood upright for 90 seconds.

I really really really want a fuckin drink.

The dark and depresso country aint helping probably.

I haven't had a drink since my spill a couple weeks back. Well, I had a half dozen jack & cokes at my moms. And a bunch of rum at a bbq the other night. And a pint last night. But I haven't had whiskey straight in a couple weeks. And I'd really like some right now. Regretting pouring it out.

I don't have a good reason to be awake even if part of me thinks I do. It's just Retardo worry & "Moonshiner" on repeat.

hi guys

me too

All stars

What're you guys doing besides hitting refresh

oh, you know, drowning in low self-esteem, that sort of thing

drinking a hansen's cherry vanilla creme soda full of sugar that won't help me sleep

thinking about my headache from staring at a computer for the last 8 hours

guys i fucking hate school

thinkin baout things

I haven't had a drink since my spill a couple weeks back. Well, I had a half dozen jack & cokes at my moms. And a bunch of rum at a bbq the other night. And a pint last night. But I haven't had whiskey straight in a couple weeks. And I'd really like some right now. Regretting pouring it out.

― BIG HOOS aka the steendriver, Friday, July 17, 2009 8:06 AM (7 minutes ago) Bookmark

i just read this back and i didn't write it to be funny i swear

you in college jordan s?

i hated school too but now that i'm a feral cat in the wilds of the post-meltdown economy, i kinda miss school.

you in college jordan s?

― worm? lol (J0hn D.), Friday, July 17, 2009 3:14 AM (1 minute ago) Bookmark

yes