Insomnia.

Ugh. I used to be able to eat and smoke myself back to sleep, but two Boca burgers, a tall glass of milk, and two cigarettes later, I'm not sleepy. In fact, now I have extra energy to get me through the rest of this miserable zombie slog that most people call "night".

It all started when I had to get up to pee. That's all it took. There was no going back to sleep after I stood upright for 90 seconds.

I really really really want a fuckin drink.

The dark and depresso country aint helping probably.

I haven't had a drink since my spill a couple weeks back. Well, I had a half dozen jack & cokes at my moms. And a bunch of rum at a bbq the other night. And a pint last night. But I haven't had whiskey straight in a couple weeks. And I'd really like some right now. Regretting pouring it out.

I don't have a good reason to be awake even if part of me thinks I do. It's just Retardo worry & "Moonshiner" on repeat.

hi guys

me too

All stars

What're you guys doing besides hitting refresh

oh, you know, drowning in low self-esteem, that sort of thing

drinking a hansen's cherry vanilla creme soda full of sugar that won't help me sleep

thinking about my headache from staring at a computer for the last 8 hours

guys i fucking hate school

thinkin baout things

I haven't had a drink since my spill a couple weeks back. Well, I had a half dozen jack & cokes at my moms. And a bunch of rum at a bbq the other night. And a pint last night. But I haven't had whiskey straight in a couple weeks. And I'd really like some right now. Regretting pouring it out.

― BIG HOOS aka the steendriver, Friday, July 17, 2009 8:06 AM (7 minutes ago) Bookmark

i just read this back and i didn't write it to be funny i swear

you in college jordan s?

i hated school too but now that i'm a feral cat in the wilds of the post-meltdown economy, i kinda miss school.

you in college jordan s?

― worm? lol (J0hn D.), Friday, July 17, 2009 3:14 AM (1 minute ago) Bookmark

yes

why do you hate it

just tired of studying and doing homework basically. i know that once i graduate ill miss the freedom and the life but man if i never have to do study "five potential essay questions, two of which will be on the test" i'll be pretty happy

mostly i just need a break - ive done summer school the past two years so i've just been on this seemingly never ending roll. need to go to the beach or something.

oh man I have terrible news dude, I graduated in '95 and pretty much 8 hours a day every day it's five potential essay questions, two of which will be on the test

that's basically all there is to post-college life

xpost though yeah a couple of consecutive summer school sessions will grind you down hard

j0hn OTM, although i did way better on essay questions than any other type of test!

Yeah I did Spring/Summer/Fall my last couple years and it was murder. I feel u. How much longer u think u got from here?

im done next may

hoos btw should I be worried about you? I think of you as the guy with the buddhist outlook which is inspiring to me so the boozin and whatnot kinda surprised me

</old dad dude>

fuck, can never quite close that tag

i get about 3-4 hours of slepp per night

spelling is the first casualty

I've been sleeping really well recently but if something wakes me up then I can't shut off my brain and I go into Worry About Everything mode

slepping is the first casualty

to slepp perchance to dram

Nah John I mean when I got fucked up and fell over a couple weeks back it was kinda a wakeup call that I needed to straighten out a minor thing or two in myself (this is a whole lengthy story in itself that I won't bore you/derail the thread with, but suffice it to say I came to some conclusions and feel way better about the problems that had me drinking). The drinks I've had since then are done at pace & moderately. When I had that rum at the bbq,for example: I poured it and sat down, then got back up and added a mixer and some ice and kept adding ice til I finished it.

I'd like a drink at the moment cause I can't sleep, but this ain't a St John of the Cross type of night. I'm done with those for the moment.

Thank you for your concern though, man. Really.

suffice it to say I came to some conclusions and feel way better about the problems that had me drinking

translation--hoos & girls are a complicated combo

i have lots of anxiety keeping me up, so it's more like a dark night of the stomach

to slepp perchance to dram

― velko, Friday, July 17, 2009 8:28 AM (5 minutes ago) Bookmark

misread this as "to sip perchance to dram" and lold in the dark

It's probably a bad look for my sleeping habits to have my laptop in bed with me.

get bent do u get those real unpleasant bubbles in the stomach when you're fretting over something

"jaco....jaco....jaco..."

cool hoos glad to hear shit's cool w/you & thanks for puttin' up w/mr. mindin a hoos's business

i think so (xxpost)

did anybody else see fuckin jeff sessions today say some shit about "doing the crack cocaine thing"

in a fucking senate judiciary committee meeting

yeah i heard that in the soundbites later

in the interest of my mental health I am mainly ignoring the hearings

that's fair i just am wondering what the fuck the context was for that cause i saw a good portion today but apparently missed jeff sessions wacky crack variety hour

maddow 'splained it tonight but i wasn't really paying attention

thasssssssss right

I'm gonna try to crawl back into bed and see if I can make the most of the next 90 minutes, pleasure hangin out with yall