things that have lost the majority of their appeal to you

yr dead inside

2. cigarettes

3. Burger King fish sandwich aka THE WHALER

4. Meeting new people

5. action figures

6. console rpgs

7. most drugs (exempt: w33d, hallucinogenic)

8. persuing other people

9. ILM

10. Soda

11. Cruelty

12. Life

13. perusing other people

everyone otm

14. the idea of going to grad school

15. arguing with aspies

14 COSIGN

16. "eating healthy" and really the whole concept of "health" in general

17. doing work at work

18. pasta
19. noise

20. cities

4. Meeting new people

21. getting wasted :/
22. meat :/
23. most of my supposed peer group

24. looking "good" or even "presentable" when out in public. or ever.

25. red wine

26. making money

27. shaving

Actually you guys I pretty much just want to hang out with you all plus a few others, and drink beers and listen to bands together. And we can bike to different places where those activities are available. That's pretty much it.

Jeez, this thread is making me sad.

(xpost, obv.)

yeah, i know, so i am just thinking abt the things that do appeal to me now and feeling better

28. bagels

29. socks

30. work

Joan Didion OTM as usual. I love her.

28. bagels

^^^^This is the saddest one.

i'm sadder about the potato chips.

that's what you get for living so close to bagel place!
things i will never live above/next to with this in mind:
- good coffee place
- loud music place even if it is good
- sushi place
- daycare centre
- bike shop

xpost

I have, like, five different bagel sources within a five minute walk and my love for them will never die.

I don't know if I like the Didion essay or hate it. It made me cry but that is not my New York in any way, or my experience of it except in the most romanticized and vaguest possible terms. Still, there is that.

yeah, i used to love that essay for certain reasons and now i love it for other reasons, and the reasons i liked it when younger seem kinda silly to me now. i think i like it these days because it's about doing what you feel is the right thing to do, damn the rest.

31. Linux

thanks for posting that didion link but did you check out the rest of that webpage? it's kinda fascinating, somebody's comic sans personal "home page" (was there ever such a thing as a personal home page? i am here to tell you there was) stopped in time at 1997

i still love that essay. and i really love this line:

I enter a revolving door at twenty and come out a good deal older, and on a different street.

32. weirdo hip-hop

33. playing in bands

34. fucking list threads

35. rock music

36. japan

37. i used to like camille paglia lol

38. my peace sign tattoo

39. Wild Turkey 101

40. wild turkey 502 (self-directed study in applied alcoholism)

41. crushing on straight boys

41. crushing on straight boys

yeah that's about right -- axually, i don't know if i've ever crushed on a gay dude. hm.

that's rough

38. my peace sign tattoo

-- milo z, Tuesday, May 22, 2007 9:22 PM (31 minutes ago) Bookmark Link

isn't that sort of a contradiction in terms?

yeah, that joan didion essay was great. it hit a little too close to home, except reverse the coasts. well, sorta, anyhow...

though, reading it towards the end i kinda wanted to shake her (her young self, not the one that lost her husband and daughter) and be like "you're just not hanging out in the right places!", or something to that effect. listen to one "shakedown street", for goodness' sake! i just mean, that, what amounts to in effect writing off an entire city, especially nyc, seems kinda messed up...but then again, i completely understand if it happens to be such a personal, visceral reaction.

oy, but geography; where one is, where one could be, can be such a mindfuck in that sense. i think about that stuff probably too much. like, what is up w/people who have eternal boosterism for where they happen to live and who seem to feel completely at home? i have never felt that way about anywhere i've lived. i've never had that sense of "home" thusfar. i dunno; maybe if i grew up in new orleans or something, it would be a different story. (just dropping that placename because that is an example of a place where i've met natives who seem to have that kinda attitude; i mean both pre- and post- katrina)

but as for the list portion of this thread, i think that it has restored my sanity to some extent. (except for the potato chip thing, wtf??! the only bad potato chip experiences i ever have are with the overly-salted ones which are too abrasive on the tastebuds)

yeah, i think it's more a 'her new york' issue than a 'new york' itself issue - could happen anywhere but b/c it's in new york, big city of myth and legend and symbol and etc, it's writ larger, has an added bonus twist of the knife, visceral quotient - we all know new york in different ways even if we've never lived there. and we also all know about having dreams and things not turning out quite the way we imagined.

re: cities and identifying with them: well, we have relationships with cities really, sometimes just friends, sometimes buds, etc. sometimes i think that story's similar to finally breaking up with someone really really great and with whom you have a good life, but not a passionate life, and just being glad you made a decision even though everything feels crazy.

20. cities
cities really waver in their appeal to me
hrm

39. porn

40. tramp stamps

41. The Chaser

sometimes i think that story's similar to finally breaking up with someone really really great and with whom you have a good life, but not a passionate life, and just being glad you made a decision even though everything feels crazy.

argh, that's soooo "O.T.M.", as to be weirdly painful, and, yeah, crazy. all too, (if there even is such a thing?) well said/written. esp. if both geographical and romantical-ish situation happen to coincide more or less in the beginning and/or end.

ouch, ???!!., etc...

42. Radio

Huge cosign to 1.

43. file-sharing

39. porn

God, I wish.

downunderdarlings.blogspot.com

it's like the internet keeps improving porn just so I won't burn out on it.

this thread is making me more depressed than i already am today

44. Scandinavians

45. indie rock and or "metal"
46. rock shows

but i still like real rock from the rock ...

i adore joan, but i dont always love what she says..i like her tone and her pacing. her world is not my world, sometmes thats hard, but then i remember why i adore her..and bask in it

47. this chair at my desk...ive been here for almost 2 hrs writing cover letter and now i hurt

48. joost

49. nba draft lottery

the thing i love about that didion essay is how... tender she is to her younger self, like she's writing about someone else, someone she loves and is watching make inevitable sad mistakes...

oh yes, i really like that quality

wait, bagels? that is crazy talk.

I love didion so much.

i love her too. you should read all her essays between now and your exam!

I found the essay more emotionally OTM than literally OTM - I mean I'm not from the Midwest or the South and didn't really grow up mythologizing NYC since my dad was from there and my mom had lived there a long time and I was born there.

Erm, my dad IS from there and my mom LIVED there for a long time. That was a strange verb tense flub.

you should write a self-help book called "being emotionally OTM"

estela, one of her novels is on my exam! but maybe I'll read it over and over again from now until the exam instead of reading anything else.

lol slocki - omg which reminds me - hey guys, slocki et al.'s radio program pilot is freakin hilarious and will not lose the majority of its appeal to you

oh ya i was gonna "announce" that, thanks rrrrr

you should announce it on not this thread!

50. cigarrettes

51. CDs

52. sex
53. music
54. movies
55. thought

56. music & film criticism
57. people who are "intellectually challenging" i.e. argumentative
58. being a hermit

59. this thread (it's so sad)

60. "film" (not movies)

61. Being Poor
62. Brooklyn

i rekindled my love for bagels after i jokingly commented to the guy behind the counter "how much for that?," gesturing at a toasted, sliced, buttered poppy seed bagel behind him. "you want half?" asked he. "yes" said i. it was delicioso.

this happened this morning.

52. sex
53. music
54. movies
55. thought

depressed much?

63. Soda / pop

occasionally root beer is alright

root beer floats are better

64. williamsburg
65. williamsboard

66. new Hollywood "movies" (re the false dichotomy in 60)

whoa really?

asia's "heat of the moment".

That is the most depressing thing on this thread.

the most inspiring thing is my bagel story right? right?

guys? nick? right?

67. nikita mihhalkov

seriously, s1ocki, I am having a shitty day and your renewed love for bagels makes me really happy. that was the one thing on this thread I couldn't understand losing appeal.

you deserve an emoticon for that: :D

68. R. Kelly albums other than Born into the 90s

I am also inspired that s1ocki rethought his bagel dismissal.

xxxxxposts:
williamsboard once had ANY appeal to you??!?! i'm so upset by this news.

69. Dinosaurs

no. well, only for self-flagellatory purposes.

dinosaurs are still awesome tho.