Grown so ugly.

I am more in shape than I have been since christmas, I think.

Not only is this impossible, but it won't work.

i don't think i'm ugly

but i don't think i'm like stunning either. it's that midway point that gets so confusing, see.

i don't know anymore

oh god i'm being emo

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_jizu9Li--I

Hahaha surm thinking he's ugly is like a glass of freshly-squeezed orange juice saying "I am not refreshing or satisfying, no one will find me delicious"

A glass of orange juice with, like, the cutesy imaginable.

And like we're not even talking the impeccable sense of style (omg the pearls) but you've got a pretty unique and lovely bone structure as well

xp that was supposed to say "the cutest frames"

I had Fred Savage Syndrome around the years of 18-20, went from being an adorable little kid to having a horse face. during an internet squabble between two boards, someone found my college pic and posted it to taunt me for being ugly.

by 24-25 I started to look somewhat normal again and in the last few years, once I've shed the shaggy look, I've been attractive to more people, so I guess I thank nature for this.

i looked really baby-faced in my late teens and early 20s, i got ID'd everywhere until i was about 25. so i'm actually glad to be 29, i at least look like a grown man.

wait til yr 39- I'm on the tipping point now- I don't really like either of two alternatives that seem sort of glaring- the "let yourself go" model of instantly getting a gut and a double chin and just thinking, "fuck it, time to go to pot" OR the crazy narcissistic gym queen with a million moisturizers school of "fighting aging"- at least for gay men there are so many people who fall into this weird trap and they tend to pick Door #2- they turn into what I call "neckdowns"- they have the body of a 20 year old from the neck down, and then there's this weird middle aged head tacked on top with a sad, haunted expression, usually covered with an Abercrombie baseball cap, as they try not to be what they are: 30s/40s.

then I look at pictures of Samuel Beckett and think "old dudes are awesome"

http://www.johnminihan.com/resources/images/beckett/large/Samuel%20Beckett%20in%20room%20604%20of%20The%20Hyde%20Park%20Hotel,%20London%201980%20%282%29.jpg

Man, I wish I still looked like the pic I complainingly posted in 2005 ... well, hairline excepted I guess I still do. Late 20s/early 30s so far so good. Think that's true of a lot of people; just having shaken off the last of the awkward years.

the tune in space u look good for ur age. u have nice skin, and boyish features.

i otoh will inevitably follow in the footsteps of my grandmother: all nose, eyes and hair.

*is space

i still get carded, and i'm 26. when i shave, i could be 18.

i'm getting a gym membership today. i want more muscle.

also the tune is space otm, re those two positions. i find it equally creepy when older dudes look like 21 year olds under their shirts. like, it's rad to have a fit, nice body at any age, but act and dress your age, old queens.

my hair has gotten so thin since I graduated from high school ;_;

but I dunno I find ways to work around it

for some reason, i think i'm lucking out on that front and not inheriting my mom's family's baldness gene. my hair is very thin, tho.

i think i'm happier with the way i look with each passing year tbh (/youthful hubris)

This turned into another gay thread, huh.

u know what i think