The Sun Is Shining For The First Time In Forever; We're Gay! Fagz Club Spring 2010

Yeah, definitely 20, cause I was just a couple months shy of my 21st when I got kicked out of the EMP bar.

I was v. much an angry, awkward, frustrated, nerdy teenager.

hs was a "best of times, worst of times" situation for me:

on the surface I was rocking: class president, had a diff. girlfriend every year, lotsa friends, in a band, doing a zine, part of the punk scene, plenty of fun shit going on

inside / in secret: closeted, doing lots of risky promiscuous stuff in public with strangers, lying to everyone, painful unrequited love for str8 friends and bandmates, clingy n depressive, homicidal/suicidal, a mess.

I'm glad I survived.

wow

i'm glad u survived, too. highschool you sounds like a very interesting person

i was def v much in the closet and was scared of being outed but that didn't really hinder my experience in high school -- most of my straight guy friends weren't doing shit w/ girls until late in senior year anyway, so i didn't really have much pressure on me

i had tons of unrequited love for str8 friends, and even had subtle moves subtly rebutted, but in a weird way it kind of gave my life purpose -- like in a perverse way it was fun knowing that after we went swimming, i got to go home and masturbate to the thought of a circle jerk -- i kind of took the position of "i'll figure this out in college" & was cool w/ it

yeah the closet is awful but it also animates every interaction with this pressurized power that lends an unmistakeable, big erotic charge to mundane stuff.

I don't miss it, but I've been thinking about hs a lot because tomorrow I fly home to Louisville, KY to see all my old posse, and my highschool band is reforming to play a benefit concert for our friend who has bone cancer. It's going to be a major headfuck to sing those songs I wrote at 17 (love songs about other people in the band, mind you) after all those years. Weird! Awkward!

awesome, amazing. u'll learn a lot about yourself

/freud

i was not "in the closet" but i was not like OUT either

You woulda loved my locker room after PE, surm. I can swear that I was too young to feel urges. I didn't kiss a boy until I was twenty-two.

i was 20

i first kissed a girl when i was 13

It was so romantic. We sat on the dirt. A rat the size of a tabby scurried over the pine needles.

i felt real pressure to kiss a girl just to say that i had kissed someone, but i never felt enough pressure to go any further just to say that i had

Well, with your looks you could have been.

which resulted in me being quite the heartbreaker in HS -- i feel like i should track these girls down so i can do the whole "no really, it really WAS me, not you" routine

ha!

Oh, attention all NYC gays: I might be in town the weekend after Memorial Day (first week of June). I'd love a FAP.

i used to kiss girls in like elementary school, bc i was really popular with them and i kind of figured why not. the other girls would tease me cuz i had a crush on this one girl, elizabeth ann ferree. she would write me letters about how much she liked me. my grandmother thought it was funny.

first kissed a girl at 15, first kissed a guy at 21

My social skills were cultivated in drama club, sr year by getting riproaring drunk at the parties. Also, I wd chase girls when I was blasted.

I never even drank until I was 18

first kissed a girl at 13, first hookup with a guy at 16 (no kissin'), but I was straight-edge in hs

girls 13
weed 15
booze 16
boys 20

kentucky boys don't kiss eh

kentucky boys sound unimaginably hot

backwoods boys

^^^^ awesome Hold Steady song title were Craig Finn queer.

haha

i didn't kiss a girl til i was a college sophomore, years after i came out. my bf was there. also there: alcohol.

first time i ever got drunk-as-a-skunk (18) was in baltimore! (haven't been back since)

girl: 15
booze: 16
weed: 18
girl-in-question's new boyfriend at the time: 18 (in front of her and all our friends, in a bar, in an american pie 2 sort of situation. pretty passive aggressive of me, but i was heartbroken and/or closeted. she and I are still/now best friends now. <-- possibly the thing i am most ashamed of having done ever, re: sketchy motivations.)
boys, without bullshit denial excuses: 21

never smaeked wiid. i am so fucking square.

Never did girls. The other three within the same year or so.

tons of my friends here have never smoked weed before -- pretty weird to me tbh but almost everyone i knew in high school got high -- only a few were true stoners but -- it's pretty sweet, everyone should try it out a few times imo

i smoked a lot more in HS than in college or after

(weed that is) (cigs = pretty much the opposite - i can actually count the # of cigs i've smoked in 2010 on one hand)

Never smoked a cig. Ick.

i have & still do sometimes -- def a drunk chain smoker

no idea rev had never smoked

def a drunk chaincocksmoker. fixed.

hs was a "best of times, worst of times" situation for me:

on the surface I was rocking: class president, had a diff. girlfriend every year, lotsa friends, in a band, doing a zine, part of the punk scene, plenty of fun shit going on

inside / in secret: closeted, doing lots of risky promiscuous stuff in public with strangers, lying to everyone, painful unrequited love for str8 friends and bandmates, clingy n depressive, homicidal/suicidal, a mess.

feelin this post so much

never touched a cig either, do occasionally have a cigar or hookah tho

hookah makes me vomit for some reason -- like instantly

my friends all smoked hookah in high school & esp in this one chick's house we'd kick it in a back room & watch tv & play boggle & shit and they'd smoke the hookah for hours and i'd feel like i straight up couldn't breathe

gas chamber ish

idk i never got the appeal of feeling light headed? just kinda make me feel generally sick

i had a roommate who owned 2 hookahs, which we used fairly often. the smell is a little much for me these days, like whenever i walk by a hookah bar

I kissed a boy before I kissed a girl. This is weird y/n?

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