so uh yeah i just finished talking to that guy now
i don't sweat dating or meeting guys too much anymore but it does feel like i always meet ppl i'm interested in like, right before he or i have to go away for a long time
― "slapsie" (donna rouge), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 06:40 (thirteen years ago) link
I did meet a girl I shared a v. obvious mutual interest with a couple weeks before I moved to Portland and it really sucked when it could have been v awesome under only slightly different circumstances.
― BIG MEECH aka the larryhoover (The Reverend), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 06:54 (thirteen years ago) link
im the same as rev wrt family name and i def don't have any interest in kids. one reason i'm glad not to be straight, i figure there's way more pressure then.
― plax (ico), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 08:29 (thirteen years ago) link
ermmmm, my only bro is gay, but i think he's kinda closeted to, like, work people? and some friends maybe?
i'm out to p much everyone except my family! MY LIFE IS A MESS
― exit through the (Tape Store), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 08:39 (thirteen years ago) link
tonight was just a weird night overall for me..... spent waayyy more time thinking about being gay than i have in a long ass time
i indirectly ended up kind of... depressed -- usually never happens to me
― de jong and the restless (J0rdan S.), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 08:52 (thirteen years ago) link
that's silly, j0rdan! you're cute and smart and are destined to be successful and happy and in love!
xoxo
― exit through the (Tape Store), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 08:57 (thirteen years ago) link
thanks boo
― de jong and the restless (J0rdan S.), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 08:58 (thirteen years ago) link
the depressed part was... you know, generally being deeply in love with my str8 best friend hovers over my life but it's something i've coped with/accepted for like 4 years or something, but tonight for some reason it actually made me pretty sad, the cruelty of the whole thing
― de jong and the restless (J0rdan S.), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 09:00 (thirteen years ago) link
hugs
― kind of shrill and very self-righteous (Dr Morbius), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 11:30 (thirteen years ago) link
that sux jordan. the coping with it even more, really :(
what tape store and morbs said, really. btw does he know?
― لوووووووووووووووووووول (lex pretend), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 12:58 (thirteen years ago) link
i dreamt last night that i went to hospital for a standard operation, ended up getting a sex change and came out as a woman. the worrying part was that the only concern in the dream was what i was going to do with my clothes and where to go to buy woman's clothes and that i didn't know what was hip.
― jed_, Tuesday, 20 July 2010 13:32 (thirteen years ago) link
That's how it was for me. Friends knew and co-workers who I felt safe around knew, but I didn't come out to my family until the beginning of this year.
I've gone through this too, with more than one straight friend! I think after a while I just realized that I am inclined to have tender feelings for the people in my life, and that I may have been mistaking my platonic love for sexual attraction. After a while the attraction sort of fell away.
― abstract sand patterns, representing water (corey), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 13:55 (thirteen years ago) link
I use the phrase "after a while" too much also, bah.
― abstract sand patterns, representing water (corey), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 13:56 (thirteen years ago) link
I just realized that I am inclined to have tender feelings for the people in my life, and that I may have been mistaking my platonic love for sexual attraction. After a while the attraction sort of fell away.
^I'm with this, so much. The realization came with getting older, basically. Although it still affects me day-to-day, like "Why can't I find a guy as good as [straight guy friend]?" Though it's more comical than upsetting now, since I don't actually want to be w/ any of my friends.
We've all gone through this, yes? So buck up, jordan. I know it stinks but echoing other sentiments, you are way cute and funny and smart and some guy will be lucky to have you.
― trippin lookin at my portfolio (billy), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 15:57 (thirteen years ago) link
btw does he know?
― لوووووووووووووووووووول (lex pretend), Tuesday, July 20, 2010 8:58 AM (3 hours ago) Bookmark
yeah yeah -- we have a really great relationship, i'm really lucky in many regards, but of course that's part of the problem
― de jong and the restless (J0rdan S.), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 16:49 (thirteen years ago) link
i didn't know he knew u were in love with him, i thought he just knew u were a faggot
― janice (surm), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 16:51 (thirteen years ago) link
oh psh, yeah
― de jong and the restless (J0rdan S.), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 16:51 (thirteen years ago) link
he loves me back! just not in exactly the same way
― de jong and the restless (J0rdan S.), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 16:52 (thirteen years ago) link
From my experience – I think we kinda discussed it once – it's a dangerous, dangerous situation.
― Would love to hear Bam babble about this (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 16:54 (thirteen years ago) link
yeah :-/
― de jong and the restless (J0rdan S.), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 16:57 (thirteen years ago) link
i think ur really nice jordan, and u will find some gorgeous man who will take care of u, i promise. i just know it. i see it.
― janice (surm), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 16:58 (thirteen years ago) link
J0rdan, I'm pouring gin down your throat this week.
― Would love to hear Bam babble about this (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 17:04 (thirteen years ago) link
alfred u have been getting really graphic with regard to liquor
― janice (surm), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 17:05 (thirteen years ago) link
That's cuz I mentioned asses and throats respectively, you perv.
― Would love to hear Bam babble about this (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 17:06 (thirteen years ago) link
one day i will find my ryan
― de jong and the restless (J0rdan S.), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 17:15 (thirteen years ago) link
http://img2.timeinc.net/people/i/2007/specials/half_size/10_tips/ryan_seacrest.jpg
― Would love to hear Bam babble about this (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 17:17 (thirteen years ago) link
you're so cute xp
i think he's fed up with me cuz i just gchat fought with him over ... yogurt
― janice (surm), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 17:18 (thirteen years ago) link
if I may quote Annie Hall, "Love fades."
― kind of shrill and very self-righteous (Dr Morbius), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 17:18 (thirteen years ago) link
is that blackened salmon? looks amazing
xpost That's OK, co-dependence flourishes.
― Eric H., Tuesday, 20 July 2010 17:20 (thirteen years ago) link
my love has not faded but it has gotten more complicated
― janice (surm), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 17:22 (thirteen years ago) link
and nihilism rules.
― Would love to hear Bam babble about this (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 17:22 (thirteen years ago) link
i'd rather chop off my own dick than fuck seacrest
― de jong and the restless (J0rdan S.), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 17:22 (thirteen years ago) link
yeah but how bout that salmon eh?
― Would love to hear Bam babble about this (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 17:23 (thirteen years ago) link
i'd much rather eat blackened salmon than do either of those things
― "slapsie" (donna rouge), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 17:23 (thirteen years ago) link
lol xp
hate salmon
― de jong and the restless (J0rdan S.), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 17:23 (thirteen years ago) link
unless it's sushi
blackened swordfish owns
― janice (surm), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 17:24 (thirteen years ago) link
surm...what aspect of yoghurt was the issue?
― لوووووووووووووووووووول (lex pretend), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 17:24 (thirteen years ago) link
tbh the yogurt was just an accidental accompaniment to the matter . . . it was mostly just me being pissy and making him deal with it. oops, i'm a bitch!
― janice (surm), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 17:26 (thirteen years ago) link
Looooove salmon. I cook a terrific broiled salmon marinated in soy sauce, dijon mustard, half a teaspoon of olive oil, and dill. Then I sprinkle capers.
― Would love to hear Bam babble about this (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 17:26 (thirteen years ago) link
i have to be honest that i love dill
― janice (surm), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 17:27 (thirteen years ago) link
surm, I'm going to shove dill up your nostrils.
― Would love to hear Bam babble about this (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 17:28 (thirteen years ago) link
don't think there's any fish or seafood that i don't love, but salmon's definitely near the top. will eat it done any way, in sushi, as gravadlax, honey roasted, anything.
― لوووووووووووووووووووول (lex pretend), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 17:28 (thirteen years ago) link
http://www.screenrights.net/conniestevensdillemma_clip_image004.jpg
― kind of shrill and very self-righteous (Dr Morbius), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 17:29 (thirteen years ago) link
I don't get these gays that liken snatch to seafood. Seafood tastes great; snatch does not.
― Would love to hear Bam babble about this (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 17:29 (thirteen years ago) link
i had halibut last night
― janice (surm), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 17:30 (thirteen years ago) link
jealous?
it's ok, i know you are, you can say it
― janice (surm), Tuesday, 20 July 2010 17:31 (thirteen years ago) link