Gays, its summer 2010 so... EVERYBODY TAKE OFF YOUR SHIRTS

i am wearing makeup today

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well of course you look beautiful

barely there makeup!

just a whisper.

you look fab.

i wish we could take a thread group foto

we'll have to when I come visit!

I'm thinking like towards the end of next month

Last night on South Beach of all places a young woman hit on me.

My new beard has proven interesting; I didn't know I'd need to sport two when I go out.

I'm thinking like towards the end of next month

― fidel castro clone (corey), Saturday, July 24, 2010 3:13 PM (4 minutes ago) Bookmark Suggest Ban Permalink

Likely to be visiting friends in NYC late August as well. Sort of a last-jaunt before law school deprives me of a social life. NYC fags - There Will Be Beers?

Hi, gays. Just sweated off a hangover at the pool. My tan is vicious.

:)

v cute, ramz.

I can't wait to meet J0rdan to see if he's more butch than I am. We may have to arm wrestle.

Morbs and J:

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idk how people are able to conceive of themselves on some continuum of masculinity. i can't really think abt myself on those terms?

I'm not a woman. I'm not a man. I am something that you'll never comprehend.

plax, it's easier when you're surrounded by different iterations of masculinity.

what does that even mean

Don't you hang out with other men?

You compare yourself with these other men.

why would i want to do that?

Because you breathe?

man dont diagnose me with ur neuroses

I wish I had some.

You're probably assuming "compare yourself with other men" is a negative thing. All I meant to say is that when I'm in a group of guys it's as natural for me to think, "This guy's a swish, this guy's straight, this guy's an effeminate straight guy." I thought that's what everyone does, like stare critically at people's shoes.

i feel like that would make me really self conscious

It's something I do too, and I don't think I'm overly self-conscious, but definitely conscious. It's just a part of reading non-verbal communication imo.

Right now I'm writing in Starbucks and two meters away is an Asian dude with appalling sandals, a ponytail, and a determined lisp. Oh -- and he ordered a non-fat vanilla latte.

plax is being disingenuous. everyone compares themselves to others. "Because you breathe" of course, well put.

obv about some things, not on some taxonomy of manliness thing. i dont even know how i would do that.

and i feel like inserting yourself into one must involve like, monitoring yourself

& you don't?

i have enough things to make me feel self conscious, plenty

it's a perfectly natural thing to do. girls compare themselves to other girls, and men compare themselves to other men. it's just what ppl (and animals) do. a lot of girls feel at odds with the idea of being "girly," and a lot of men feel at odds with the concept of masculinity. especially in the marketing department, we are constantly barraged with ideas of masculinity, and when you have other men buying into it, it becomes all-too-natural to size yourself up in this way. especially when you are friends with other gay men, you started to compare your behavior with theirs.

also, as a gay man, you start with a preconceived set of insecurities in the way of your behavior. you come from a place of comparison -- a place of difference. so, questioning yourself in this way becomes the norm for a lot of us. it is a survival strategy to evaluate how "normal" you are insofar as society is concerned with acceptable male behavior.

so, while i think it's cool that you do not concern yourself with this, i also think it's unusual.

i also think it is your culture that determines a lot of this, and i suspect ireland operates on a different spectrum with regard to gender and sexuality.

great post, R.

saw a queer/punk guy at Oakland Whole Foods cleaning the floor - first thing i thought of was if table knows/"knows" him - his name tag read "Al3x F" (obv not googleproofed on the name tag)

tatted/piecered bros are 10¢/12 at WF here

ha, "piecered".

i've had sex with at least one guy from each WF in the City.

i don't know this character, sarahel, unless he had braids? if he did, then HOLY SHIT HE'S BACK FROM TRAVELLING? i love that one al3x and have missed him.

Awright, gays, I'm going drinking. Come join me. I'll buy you a sour apple martini, surm. Tabes, you'll like the blond Argentine who's meeting us.

Guys here who've met me--am I "masc" or "straight-acting"?? Because I don't think I am, but everyone's shocked when they find out I'm gay. But maybe I let loose a bit when I'm around people who know I'm gay.

xp table - no braids - tall, thin, fauxhawk-y, pretty cute

tabes is it shitty if I start going to, like, Bash Back mtgs in hopes of getting some?

my more feminine side is v. connected to my sexual psyche (no idea what i mean by that so don't ask), maybe even fetishistic, so v. few ppl ever get to see it come into play

ugh can i have that removed from the internet?

i have no idea what i even am!

The "continuum of masculinity" can be a lotta fun when you consciously play with it, ie, turn your femme/butch dials up and down depending on the situation. (the world of 'roleplay' is one part of this, e.g. leather daddies who have Judy Garland shrines in the house)

Hah, as if there are ones that don't.

I don't know if I play with my masculinity, I just float around trying to be friendly and civilized.