― Alex K (Alex K), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 09:01 (twenty years ago) link
― gareth (gareth), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 09:02 (twenty years ago) link
― Nick Southall (Nick Southall), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 09:03 (twenty years ago) link
I don't have anyone to hug. :*(
― Cozen (Cozen), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 09:13 (twenty years ago) link
*Inetrweb hug*
― Julio Desouza (jdesouza), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 09:16 (twenty years ago) link
― Alex K (Alex K), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 09:21 (twenty years ago) link
Big sympathies David, it won't matter what you do over the next few days, you'll still feel just as bad. Maybe by that time there'll be some good advice on the thread though. My only suggestions are - write it all down and then throw the paper away; drink in order to sleep*; organise some kind of visit somewhere else for a couple of weeks' time.
*if you're a sleepy drunk. Not otherwise.
― Tico Tico (Tico Tico), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 09:27 (twenty years ago) link
Thank you for all the kind words.
I have been so bad to Katy. I've not abused her or hurt her or anything overt, I guess I've just neglected her which is a way of irredeemably bruising a heart and I wish every little nag, every dismissal of taste, every stupid insult disguised and justified as 'joke', every single hour I spent on here instead of with Katy I wish I could just start it all over again. Sorry.
(My mind keeps returning to the same thought: 'I need to get a haircut!' Why?)
― David. (Cozen), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 09:39 (twenty years ago) link
― Tico Tico (Tico Tico), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 09:41 (twenty years ago) link
― Julio Desouza (jdesouza), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 10:16 (twenty years ago) link
― David. (Cozen), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 11:51 (twenty years ago) link
― Nick Southall (Nick Southall), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 13:21 (twenty years ago) link
― Sarah McLUsky (coco), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 13:25 (twenty years ago) link
I need to let her be, don't I? I've sent her e-mails, explaining how I feel, explaining how I can and will change, asking for a second chance, I just need to let it rest now until she's ready to come to me. I'm just scared she won't come to me and drive myself to death by not sleeping or eating or thinking other thoughts.
― David. (Cozen), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 13:27 (twenty years ago) link
― Mark C (Mark C), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 13:29 (twenty years ago) link
― Andrew Thames (Andrew Thames), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 13:29 (twenty years ago) link
That's exactly what you need to do. If you've already let her know how you feel and how you can make it up to her, you have to leave her alone for a little while and let her figure out what she wants to do.
― Larcole (Nicole), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 13:31 (twenty years ago) link
I can't believe she doesn't love me anymore.
― David. (Cozen), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 13:33 (twenty years ago) link
― Andrew Thames (Andrew Thames), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 13:35 (twenty years ago) link
― Mrmister, Tuesday, 22 July 2003 13:38 (twenty years ago) link
This is what I hope; it's just a week is a long time when the minute hand never moves.
I'm feeling about 12 on Don Paterson's "Scale of Intensity":
1) Not felt. Smoke still rises vertically. In sensitive individuals, déjà vu, mild amnesia. Sea like a mirror.
2) Detected by persons at rest or favourably placed, i.e. in upper floors, hammocks, cathedrals, etc. Leaves rustle.
3) Light sleepers wake. Glasses chink. Hairpins, paperclips display slight magnetic properties. Irritability. Vibration like passing of light trucks.
4) Small bells ring. Small increase in surface tension and viscosity of certain liquids. Domestic violence. Furniture overturned.
5) Heavy sleepers wake. Pendulum clocks stop. Public demonstrations. Large flags fly. Vibration like passing of heavy trucks.
6) Large bells ring. Bookburning. Aurora visible in daylight hours. Unprovoked assaults on strangers. Glassware broken. Loose tiles fly from roof.
7) Weak chimneys broken off at roofline. Waves on small ponds, water turbid with mud. Unprovoked assaults on neighbours. Large static charges built up on windows, mirrors, television screens.
8) Perceptible increase in weight of stationary objects: books, cups, pens heavy to lift. Fall of stucco and some masonry. Systematic rape of women and young girls. Sand craters. Cracks in wet ground.
9) Small trees uprooted. Bathwater drains in reverse vortex. Wholesale slaughter of religious and ethnic minorities. Conspicuous cracks in ground. Damage to reservoirs and underground pipelines.
10) Large trees uprooted. Measurable tide in puddles, teacups, etc. Torture and rape of small children. Irreparable damage to foundations. Rails bend. Sand shifts horizontally on beaches.
11) Standing impossible. Widespread self-mutilation. Corposant visible on pylons, lampposts, metal railings. Waves seen on ground surface. Most bridges destroyed.
12) Damage total. Movement of hour hand perceptible. Large rock masses displaced. Sea white.
― David. (Cozen), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 13:39 (twenty years ago) link
"If you love something, set it free; if it comes back then it is truly meant to be."
― Nick Southall (Nick Southall), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 13:39 (twenty years ago) link
― Dave Stelfox (Dave Stelfox), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 13:40 (twenty years ago) link
― smee (smee), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 13:42 (twenty years ago) link
― Andrew Thames (Andrew Thames), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 13:42 (twenty years ago) link
― Chris V. (Chris V), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 13:43 (twenty years ago) link
― Chris V. (Chris V), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 13:45 (twenty years ago) link
― David. (Cozen), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 13:57 (twenty years ago) link
― smee (smee), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 13:58 (twenty years ago) link
― kate (kate), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 14:00 (twenty years ago) link
― Nick Southall (Nick Southall), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 14:02 (twenty years ago) link
As for RIGHT NOW - company company company. If you're alone the chances are much higher you'll end up phoning/writing/hitting refresh etc etc. You need people around you who are going to talk about the rest of the universe rather than your collapsed bit of it.
The only other advice I'd give is to make sure you don't say anything that can never be taken back.
I hope you don't even read this post until tomorrow!
― Tico Tico (Tico Tico), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 14:04 (twenty years ago) link
I've read your post, Tom.
What does 'don't say anything that can never be taken back' mean? I'm getting away from this computer now. See how it all looks in the morning.
― David. (Cozen), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 14:07 (twenty years ago) link
― Chris V. (Chris V), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 14:09 (twenty years ago) link
But there in the clearingI know you'll be wearingYour young aching smileAnd waving your hand
Can't go with my heartWhen I can't feel what's in itI thought you'd come overBut for some reason you didn't glassOn the pavement under my shoeWithout you is all my life amounts to
A final sleepNo words from my cuttingMouth to your earOr taut wicked pinchesFrom my fingers to your bitter faceThat I can't heal
I know tomorrow you will beSomewhere in LondonLiving with someoneYou've got some kind of familyThere to turn toAnd that's more thanI could ever give you
A chance for calmA hope for freedomOutlet from my cold solitary kingdomBy the forest of our spring stayWhere you walked away
And left a bleeding part of meEmpty and botheredWatching the waterQuiet in the cornerNumb and falling throughWithout you what does my life amount to
― Chris V. (Chris V), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 14:10 (twenty years ago) link
― Tico Tico (Tico Tico), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 14:11 (twenty years ago) link
― David. (Cozen), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 15:03 (twenty years ago) link
― Tico Tico (Tico Tico), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 15:14 (twenty years ago) link
― Bryan (Bryan), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 15:22 (twenty years ago) link
― Chris V. (Chris V), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 15:26 (twenty years ago) link
― Bryan (Bryan), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 15:46 (twenty years ago) link
― Ned Raggett (Ned), Tuesday, 22 July 2003 16:03 (twenty years ago) link
It's pretty much over for the time being. I think. Only time will tell how this all resolves. I still love her. She doesn't love me. Not currently, anyway. And that's fine. My heart and head have accepted this. I'm not going to love someone who doesn't love me back. The doors always open for her, she knows this.
I think that a large part of the blame for my degeneration has to fall at ilx's feet. Or rather at that part of me which is compulsive / addictive about it and I need to go away and really just reset from this whole experience. I've made a lot of friends, and a lot of contacts, I suppose, to look at it callously. I hope some of you remember me. I'll probably lurk for a while, mop up some of the responses to this thread, but this is pretty much me signing out.
I'm not scared of my name anymore,
― David Howie (Cozen), Wednesday, 23 July 2003 19:36 (twenty years ago) link
― Martin Skidmore (Martin Skidmore), Wednesday, 23 July 2003 20:49 (twenty years ago) link
― Nick Southall (Nick Southall), Wednesday, 23 July 2003 21:01 (twenty years ago) link
― Sean (Sean), Wednesday, 23 July 2003 23:06 (twenty years ago) link
― N. (nickdastoor), Wednesday, 23 July 2003 23:09 (twenty years ago) link
― strongo hulkington (dubplatestyle), Wednesday, 23 July 2003 23:10 (twenty years ago) link
Anyway, I wanted to say before how touched I am when people in distress bother to look for another thread to post to, rather than start their own.
― N. (nickdastoor), Wednesday, 23 July 2003 23:14 (twenty years ago) link
Han was in the chorus and Jay was an apostle. it was a big production for an amateur drama school, used the city's main theatre. set still wobbled a bit tho.
― arid banter (Noodle Vague), Friday, 6 June 2014 23:27 (ten years ago) link
awesome
― mookieproof, Friday, 6 June 2014 23:28 (ten years ago) link
at least you aren't don henley
― mattresslessness, Friday, 6 June 2014 23:39 (ten years ago) link
small blessings
― mookieproof, Friday, 6 June 2014 23:46 (ten years ago) link
this would explain p much my entire PC MUSIC posting spree fwiw
met my best friend today. we meet in small installments. it's nice and i enjoy it. but now night has settled - long, dark, abandoned. is this a state one must grow accustomed to
― Ѿ (imago), Tuesday, 23 September 2014 22:59 (nine years ago) link
sorry this is so egotistical, something will happen to make me feel less lonely soon, others are suffering more, i'm just attention spoilt. um i'll be in other threads
― Ѿ (imago), Tuesday, 23 September 2014 23:00 (nine years ago) link
I love to be alone, I have gone to Silverdale for peace and quiet. The noise of others is deafening sometimes
― anvil, Tuesday, 23 September 2014 23:02 (nine years ago) link
^me too and i rarely am these days and i fear it is actually killing me
― a cheese has occurred (electricsound), Tuesday, 23 September 2014 23:28 (nine years ago) link
lj yr polysyllabic spree brings content, and content is king, regrettez rien
― macho nonreal (nakhchivan), Tuesday, 23 September 2014 23:40 (nine years ago) link
My son's school requested some photos for PECS assistance and two of the categories they gave us was Family and Friends and we have had to explain that outside of the school he has no friends at all and none of either of his parents families give a fuck about him, so there are no photos we can add as family and friends other than me his mum, me and the fucking labrador! It only bothers me that by the time I am dead this will be a problem and he will be truly lonely.
― xelab, Tuesday, 21 October 2014 22:39 (nine years ago) link