And also I shouldn’t even be thinking this hard about it, I am NOT that girl right now
― surm, Sunday, 15 November 2020 01:17 (three years ago) link
lol
― Give me a Chad Smith-type feel (map), Sunday, 15 November 2020 01:19 (three years ago) link
🤪 what’s funny is that I just finished a song about how I’m falling for a guy but I know deep down it’s too soon, it was a fictional piece but looks like I made my nightmares come true
Wassup tonight mappy
― surm, Sunday, 15 November 2020 01:21 (three years ago) link
I've always had a really hard time reading the people that I've been interested in. In retrospect it seems like there's a fine line between over-eagerness and dismissal and I feel like I've so often been on the wrong side of that line on both sides
― Dan S, Sunday, 15 November 2020 01:28 (three years ago) link
you seem grounded surm
― Dan S, Sunday, 15 November 2020 01:29 (three years ago) link
💙 I totally understand what you’re saying, and I gotta tell you that being grounded is not a familiar feeling to me so I’m enjoying it while it lasts
― surm, Sunday, 15 November 2020 01:33 (three years ago) link
I think my own projection often obscured a real understanding of where the person I was interested in was coming from. I wish I had realized that then, it would have been helpful
― Dan S, Sunday, 15 November 2020 01:54 (three years ago) link
You’re walking around in my brain. I know that now but boy did I fuck that up way too many times
― surm, Sunday, 15 November 2020 02:05 (three years ago) link
Very angry at my guy right now, he's being an absolute asshole, just need to type that here to get it out! Please continue scrolling.
― healthy cocaine off perfect butts (the table is the table), Sunday, 15 November 2020 17:30 (three years ago) link
Noooooo! You’re definitely not the only one who’s getting into fights with their loved ones. You guys able to resolve things?
― surm, Monday, 16 November 2020 02:32 (three years ago) link
gl table
my cat is snuggling with me on the couch atm
― Give me a Chad Smith-type feel (map), Monday, 16 November 2020 02:36 (three years ago) link
I can’t believe I don’t have a dog or a cat in my life right now
― surm, Monday, 16 November 2020 07:12 (three years ago) link
Snuggling with the pup.
Everything okay here. Just had to hash it out.
― healthy cocaine off perfect butts (the table is the table), Monday, 16 November 2020 12:29 (three years ago) link
Oh good so gladI will say that’s one of the things I do not miss about being in a couple, those fights wd tear me apartBut it is worth it for the right person 🤩
― surm, Monday, 16 November 2020 17:00 (three years ago) link
my third ltr is proving to be the least fight-y
― Give me a Chad Smith-type feel (map), Monday, 16 November 2020 19:20 (three years ago) link
Excellent. I was just thinking today if I happen to wind up in a relationship again it will be my number one goal to not have shouting matches
― surm, Tuesday, 17 November 2020 02:09 (three years ago) link
Hardly ever shouting matches, tbh. Mostly just little disagreements and smoldering anger and processing.
― healthy cocaine off perfect butts (the table is the table), Tuesday, 17 November 2020 02:57 (three years ago) link
same here
although...i did actually scream in the heat of an intense talk last week. tbh i've had a lot of smoldering anger about a lot of things lately and haven't really had an outlet for it and it all just sorta bubbled up to the surface. i don't feel great admitting it, and i still feel shitty about having done it.
― donna rouge, Tuesday, 17 November 2020 04:02 (three years ago) link
I'm in a good (avoidant) place with regard to fighting, but part of it is probably due to my being on absolute pins and anxious needles for the last 10 months.
Had good sex today tho, fwiw.
― On average, this critic grades 8.3 points lower than other critics (Eric H.), Tuesday, 17 November 2020 04:47 (three years ago) link
Nice!! Honeymooners u
JG don’t beat yourself up. I’ve been there way too many times to count. Be kind to yourself and let yourself process why you think it got there, it’ll take a couple of days.
― surm, Tuesday, 17 November 2020 06:26 (three years ago) link
Instances of smoldering anger have subsided significantly as the pandemic has gone on, to be frank. There just isn't as much to be upset about, and anything I am upset about seems pretty insignificant.
― healthy cocaine off perfect butts (the table is the table), Tuesday, 17 November 2020 11:27 (three years ago) link
Yes pandemia is definitely beating trivialities and not-so-trivialities into submission for sure
― surm, Tuesday, 24 November 2020 03:41 (three years ago) link
Happy Thanksgiving’s eve sweetumsWhat’s the plan?
― surm, Thursday, 26 November 2020 02:04 (three years ago) link
IT’S ALMOST WINTER
― surm, Monday, 7 December 2020 01:43 (three years ago) link
I dreamed I bumped into a rather cute music writer whom I haven't met during normal times. I was better looking than he thought, for he kept flirting with me and I kept him swatting his comments aside, nervous about the girlfriend about to leave. When she left, we sat on the couch, and he said, "It's about time" and we start making out.
I'd forgotten the dream until I saw his photo on Instagram.
― Patriotic Goiter (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Tuesday, 22 December 2020 19:51 (three years ago) link
i was typing out a post about himbos of christmas past but i deleted it.
― ffolkes (map), Tuesday, 22 December 2020 20:57 (three years ago) link
I had a dream the other night about two hook-ups I had many years ago. It was...something.
― "Bi" Dong A Ban He Try (the table is the table), Tuesday, 22 December 2020 22:19 (three years ago) link
i got heated last night / this morning remembering this guy, his name was bl4k3 y3l4v1ch, who i hooked up with in the showers at a 24 hour fitness. he was like 6'3, built like a linebacker with a gigantic schlong. that was going to be my himbos of christmas past post and now i guess it's been resurrected. anyway it was fun to reminisce about him with my boyfriend, it turns out we're both in the bl4k3 y3l4v1ch club, but he took him in a sling at a sex party. anyway!!
― ffolkes (map), Tuesday, 22 December 2020 22:23 (three years ago) link
Uh, you mean the erotic photographer who takes photos of musclebound twinks and leather cowboys?
― "Bi" Dong A Ban He Try (the table is the table), Tuesday, 22 December 2020 22:27 (three years ago) link
hahahahaha
― ffolkes (map), Tuesday, 22 December 2020 22:32 (three years ago) link
i didn't know he was so well known
― ffolkes (map), Tuesday, 22 December 2020 22:33 (three years ago) link
read that sentence as "I didn't know he was so well hung."
― Patriotic Goiter (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Tuesday, 22 December 2020 22:33 (three years ago) link
lol, i definitely knew that part
― ffolkes (map), Tuesday, 22 December 2020 22:34 (three years ago) link
map, I used to model in pr0n, I know everyone's names.
― "Bi" Dong A Ban He Try (the table is the table), Tuesday, 22 December 2020 22:35 (three years ago) link
or at least, their "stage" names lol
haha, that's awesome
― ffolkes (map), Tuesday, 22 December 2020 22:35 (three years ago) link
i wish we were at some kind of party and i could press you for stories.
anyway, the bf is on the same page as me wrt not celebrating christmas, so it's basically a 5 day long break for me, which i'm really looking forward to. wishing all the readers of this thread peace and all that (and if you don't like xmas as much as i don't like it, it will be over soon). take care of yourselves!
― ffolkes (map), Tuesday, 22 December 2020 22:44 (three years ago) link
Likewise, map. Someday!
best to you and the bf.
― "Bi" Dong A Ban He Try (the table is the table), Tuesday, 22 December 2020 22:44 (three years ago) link
thanks table, to you and yours too
― ffolkes (map), Tuesday, 22 December 2020 22:45 (three years ago) link
Glad to hear from you all, I trust you are all on your way to a restful New Year’s! We’ll debate who starts the winter thread in due time 💋💋💋
― surm, Wednesday, 23 December 2020 00:08 (three years ago) link
This is my second year in a row spending Christmas with no family! But also my second year in a row doing a breakneck scoring job for a Sundance submission, so I think it'll be easier this year.
― flamboyant goon tie included, Wednesday, 23 December 2020 00:36 (three years ago) link
Oh I don't have much gay to report. I've been thinking about how gay men act shitty and then accuse people of "slut shaming" them when they are told they've been acting shitty. If you are trying to fuck my boyfriend behind my back, i.e., you're not being a slut! you're just being shitty! shame on you! I am shit-shaming you, not slut-shaming you
― flamboyant goon tie included, Wednesday, 23 December 2020 00:38 (three years ago) link
lol otm
― ffolkes (map), Wednesday, 23 December 2020 02:58 (three years ago) link
I need to remember what "boyfriend," "slut-shaming," and, especially, "gay men" mean next year.
― Patriotic Goiter (Alfred, Lord Sotosyn), Wednesday, 23 December 2020 03:02 (three years ago) link
I need to remember what lol and otm mean next year.
― On average, this critic grades 8.3 points lower than other critics (Eric H.), Thursday, 24 December 2020 19:53 (three years ago) link
Omg don’t get me started on slut shamingShit shaming otm
― surm, Friday, 25 December 2020 02:30 (three years ago) link
Who wants to start a winter thread?
― surm, Sunday, 10 January 2021 19:50 (three years ago) link