well yeah, that's one of the reasons it seemed best to mostly abandon this thread
i'm weirded out sometimes now by what feels almost like performing my age. it probably doesn't belong on the pile of things that are actually bad and make me sad tho
― orcas who sign their posts like it's a freaking email (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 1 July 2023 15:00 (one year ago) link
akshully maybe the majority of things that are making me sad now are things that people in their mid-fifties don't have to deal with if they made better life choices than me
― orcas who sign their posts like it's a freaking email (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 1 July 2023 15:03 (one year ago) link
Sometimes when I’m half awake I think of a pleasant memory from 20 years ago and it puts me in a nice relaxed state and I fall back asleep
i wonder if we can all do this but forget that we can do it when we're too focused on the downers
― orcas who sign their posts like it's a freaking email (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 1 July 2023 15:07 (one year ago) link
Houellebecq wrote in one of his worst novels when ruminating on nostalgia that the present is like an "abscess of suffering" we have to drag about with us, caught between the infinities of happiness and peace that are the past and the future. It was one of them beautifully concise lines of writing that rung a bell with me at the time and stuck with me, wasn't so sure about him including the future in this though!
― calzino, Saturday, 1 July 2023 17:04 (one year ago) link
Now I think it's better to have nothing to say, but it's still a tremulous pleasure to watch your moods drift by
― the news is terrible, i'm in the clear (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 24 August 2024 12:36 (four weeks ago) link
to bed almost exactly 12 hours after getting out of it.
― koogs, Saturday, 7 September 2024 20:16 (two weeks ago) link
Is that a good thing? Sounds nice to me. I always go to sleep later than I intend to
― calstars, Saturday, 7 September 2024 20:26 (two weeks ago) link
not when it's out of boredom.
been looking forwards to it since Tuesday and then nothing.
― koogs, Saturday, 7 September 2024 21:58 (two weeks ago) link
Boredom?
― calstars, Saturday, 7 September 2024 22:09 (two weeks ago) link
it's just too beautiful here today, it's fucking awful tbh
― Bernard Quidbins (NickB), Saturday, 14 September 2024 10:09 (one week ago) link
like actually painfully lovely
― Bernard Quidbins (NickB), Saturday, 14 September 2024 10:10 (one week ago) link
think i'm a lot better equipped to deal with dull grey tedium, feel like i need to watch videos of some miserable pissy rain to calm myself down
― Bernard Quidbins (NickB), Saturday, 14 September 2024 10:14 (one week ago) link
I should go and catch the sun while it's still around but y'know
― Yuwen Hu's army (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 14 September 2024 10:14 (one week ago) link
yeah definitely do it, don't know what it's like round your way but it is really wonderful out there. there's something about the beauty of it though, you feel like you need to make the most of it but you know it'll all slip through your fingers anyway
― Bernard Quidbins (NickB), Saturday, 14 September 2024 10:21 (one week ago) link
Well I'm all too familiar with that feeling so probably no different today. Feels like a lot of work dragging myself off the settee and putting outside clothes on tho
― Yuwen Hu's army (Noodle Vague), Saturday, 14 September 2024 10:26 (one week ago) link
yeah there is that. probably a good day to take a new book for a walk, get out and about but still have something to hide in
― Bernard Quidbins (NickB), Saturday, 14 September 2024 10:35 (one week ago) link
― brimstead, Saturday, 14 September 2024 13:50 (one week ago) link
yes, exactly that. can definitely feel buddhism calling me back
― Bernard Quidbins (NickB), Saturday, 14 September 2024 20:32 (one week ago) link
Hope you're doing OK, koogs. Sending good vibes & hoping the ennui lifts soon.
(I just realised this reply is a week late, but, y'know. Hoping it's already lifted, but if not, all that stuff, still.)
― a passing spacecadet, Saturday, 14 September 2024 22:16 (one week ago) link
Drank too many ipas last night and was in bed until 5 today. Then got up and went over to the coffee shop and it was really nice
― calstars, Saturday, 14 September 2024 22:50 (one week ago) link
beautiful days get me too esp if i'm a little down
― he/him hoo-hah (map), Saturday, 14 September 2024 22:56 (one week ago) link