what do i do with my life?

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like, seriously.

― jess (dubplatestyle), Friday, 24 January 2003 05:50 (twenty-three years ago)

as i seem to be sliding into a mudpit of location/money based entropy/depression/circularity.

(first person to respond "writing" gets a sock in the snoot.)

― jess (dubplatestyle), Friday, 24 January 2003 05:51 (twenty-three years ago)

things seemed to be going well before xmas, but not they seem, if not hopeless, a bit bleaker.

― jess (dubplatestyle), Friday, 24 January 2003 05:52 (twenty-three years ago)

get into QA, it's piss easy and pays like the clappers

― electric sound of jim (electricsound), Friday, 24 January 2003 05:52 (twenty-three years ago)

get pregnant

― That Girl (thatgirl), Friday, 24 January 2003 05:53 (twenty-three years ago)

like in junior.

― jess (dubplatestyle), Friday, 24 January 2003 05:54 (twenty-three years ago)

wait, no, that's depressing.

― jess (dubplatestyle), Friday, 24 January 2003 05:54 (twenty-three years ago)

i think i'm beginning to view these threads as the proverbial "a thousand monkeys typing at a thousand typewriters"

― jess (dubplatestyle), Friday, 24 January 2003 05:55 (twenty-three years ago)

no offense to any monkeys

― jess (dubplatestyle), Friday, 24 January 2003 05:56 (twenty-three years ago)

travel?

― Mary (Mary), Friday, 24 January 2003 06:16 (twenty-three years ago)

what is qa, sign me up

― ron (ron), Friday, 24 January 2003 06:22 (twenty-three years ago)

queer aerobics

― Tracer Hand (tracerhand), Friday, 24 January 2003 06:31 (twenty-three years ago)

join a circus

― James Blount (James Blount), Friday, 24 January 2003 06:35 (twenty-three years ago)

cheer up also (for the children)

― James Blount (James Blount), Friday, 24 January 2003 06:36 (twenty-three years ago)

Get yourself some Jess time, and ask yourself, "What do I want to do?" Could be short-term, could be long-term, whatever. If you can answer that question, figger out what needs to get done to get what you want to do done. Then do that. (WARNING: If getting this done involves some distasteful things, try your best to suck it up & gut it out for the sake of the goal.) If you can't answer that question, do some of that them there soul-searching & find out what you want to do.

Gimme a banana & eat my fleas, dammit. Ooo ooo.

― David R. (popshots75`), Friday, 24 January 2003 06:46 (twenty-three years ago)

write a one-act play abou the life of Michael Gross; live off the royalties

― James Blount (James Blount), Friday, 24 January 2003 07:03 (twenty-three years ago)

CHEER UP!

― James Blount (James Blount), Friday, 24 January 2003 07:22 (twenty-three years ago)

Graphic design, and perhaps gradschool.

― Sterling Clover (s_clover), Friday, 24 January 2003 07:49 (twenty-three years ago)

actually show up at a NYC FAP for once

― M Matos (M Matos), Friday, 24 January 2003 08:51 (twenty-three years ago)

serious answer: you need to relocate. maybe only for a short time, maybe for longer, but you obviously hate Olympia, you're driving yourself nuts by staying there, I'm guessing you feel guilty because you don't want your girlfriend to think it's about her, only it's not, and the kind of things you want to do (which probably involves wr*t*ng whether you want to admit it or not) can't be accomplished there. I'd say NYC except I don't have a place for you to sleep (if I'm suggesting it I'd better help make good on it, right?) but while I'm dimly aware of your not having enjoyed your previous tenure here you need to be in a city of some kind. Olympia is not that city. (Olympia is not a city, no offense.)

― M Matos (M Matos), Friday, 24 January 2003 08:56 (twenty-three years ago)

Matos you can wr*t* anywhere. I think that jess needs to make a truce with Olympia is the big thing, which mainly means finding a place for himself there. Exploring careers & education available there seems like how to fit in.

I mean like if yr. committed to someone you can do pretty otherwise bizare things to make it work, and if the circumstances then get in the way of the relationship, there are relationship-ish things to be done to cut against that and use the problems to shore it up and make it stronger.

― Sterling Clover (s_clover), Friday, 24 January 2003 09:10 (twenty-three years ago)

I meant more socially, but obv I'm stabbing in the dark based on what I've read of his here

― M Matos (M Matos), Friday, 24 January 2003 09:16 (twenty-three years ago)

i think i'm beginning to view these threads as the proverbial "a thousand monkeys typing at a thousand typewriters"

no offence, but you could try not starting these threads

― electric sound of jim (electricsound), Friday, 24 January 2003 10:13 (twenty-three years ago)

Actually, knowing you, jess, I think going back to school on some sort of basis (part-time, or even auditing a class) might be something to consider while you sort out what you want to do. Just a thought.

― felicity (felicity), Friday, 24 January 2003 10:18 (twenty-three years ago)

i think a lot of these threads have been started by various people. and, while some are attention appeals, some are requests for advice and ideas, and some have given some very good advice (and perhaps not only to the starter of the thread but to other people also who might be in the same boat)

and even if it is just to talk about it, well thats not all bad either you know. i started one of these thread myself last summer. i needed advie, but i also needed to say. id never done that before. my situation didnt reslove unfortunately, but i feel a lot better about it now, and perhjaps starting the thread was a small part of that, recognising it, getting it put down...

― gareth (gareth), Friday, 24 January 2003 10:21 (twenty-three years ago)

i was irritable about being referred to as a 'monkey' just because i ddin't take the question as seriously as jess would have otherwise liked.

― electric sound of jim (electricsound), Friday, 24 January 2003 10:23 (twenty-three years ago)

actually now that i think about it it was sorta funny

― electric sound of jim (electricsound), Friday, 24 January 2003 10:29 (twenty-three years ago)

I think the travel option is the wrong solution as you can not escape from yourself. Sooner or later you will (have to) face yourself again. And therapy or books on the subject might help. I think in the end only you knows what is best.

― nathalie (nathalie), Friday, 24 January 2003 10:35 (twenty-three years ago)

i will say that i hit a big low in the summer with having nowhere to live, a very dysfunctional friendship that finally crumbled and questions about do i want to live in london. while living in a basement hotel room under the pavement that was draining all my money i decided to book a trip to america for 3 weeks (the dc-baltimore-phuilly-boston-nyc fap extravaganza)

this really changed things, i got somewhere to live just before i set off, and the tripimproved my life a big way, it got me out of a downward spiral id ghradually fallen into over the summer, and even though it was only a 3 week trip i felt totally different when i got back. the negative thoughts i had had were gone, i felt like i'd gone and doen something great. since then ive tried to make it that i am always doing, or about to do, something good

― gareth (gareth), Friday, 24 January 2003 10:42 (twenty-three years ago)

This is going to sound like a crass contribution, but - seasonality may have something to do with it. I don't know what the winters are like in Olympia but for me January and February are always a bit crappy - comedowns, new year guilt, pointless self-examination, not enough sunlight, too much boring shit to do and not much reward except going and sitting in pubs.

― Tom (Groke), Friday, 24 January 2003 10:44 (twenty-three years ago)

That's a great and inspiring story, Gareth. I think I also need to take a short excursion somewhere to get my head together... this usually works for me.

― Jody Beth Rosen (Jody Beth Rosen), Friday, 24 January 2003 10:45 (twenty-three years ago)

road-trip.

― geeta, Friday, 24 January 2003 11:05 (twenty-three years ago)

I guess I need to chuck out my common sense and also the few things I learned from psychology. Both say that, with chronic depression, moving away is (in the long run) not the solution. (Too grumpy today after receiving bad news. blergh)

― nathalie (nathalie), Friday, 24 January 2003 11:39 (twenty-three years ago)

bad news nath? email me if you want to talk abt it.

― Marcello Carlin, Friday, 24 January 2003 11:44 (twenty-three years ago)

haha jim, i'm sorry. they really weren't related. (yr post - my comment.)

tom is partly right...january and feb suck for me anywhere, and last year around this time (grandfather dying, crappy job, 2900 mile distance, etc.) was obv much worse. time away from olympia would be good, but a. that takes money and b. i have none. unfortunately i think sterl is probably right-est: the sooner i accept the fact that if i'm init2winit, i've got two more years here, the better. hmmm.

anyway, thank you all, as always.

― jess (dubplatestyle), Friday, 24 January 2003 17:23 (twenty-three years ago)

eleven years pass...

reading this thread was oddly cheering, thanks 2003 ilx

― Lamp, Saturday, 25 January 2014 09:32 (twelve years ago)

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