ennui; im becoming a sullen alcoholic, swv - right here (human nature remix)

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christ its sad, all that uncertainty and weirdness of the past few months (fuck it, years) comes rushing to the forefront, like lately i dont know if its worth getting rejected to even make a try for something that actually matters to me, oh well! fuck its eternally an illogical crush anyway, i mean i havent been feeling so great about 'crushes' recently ... maybe the problem, like the BIG problem, is that i just dont have anyone to fall in love with (sob sigh!!) like ok, a while back i think i taught my sheltered obsessive self to become an almost convincing fly indie tart slut but this dumb ass petty superficial world of that seems less appealing by the day, i guess ill still take the emotional and physical closeness of it though. i feel like whats her name in husbands & wives, 'well...ive found someone i LIKE', is that all its going to be for the rest of my life?? i never thought id even have to worry about being liked more than i did towards someone, im so used to being a dorky highschooler whos opressive and stifling romantically that when i finally stop caring thats when the right peoples dont love me and the wrong peoples do, god if only i could choose who fell in love with me!! well maybe i can, and sort of have, i suppose the great irony here is that when i am in love i cant make a move but when its someone who means nothing i can totally go for it and, ok wait that actually makes perfect sense, its not ironic at all : /

― trife, Sunday, 9 March 2003 07:29 (twenty-three years ago)

thank god, i have been missing you on this thing, ethan!

― ron (ron), Sunday, 9 March 2003 07:38 (twenty-three years ago)

sorry thats just sort of a depressing as fuck mind dump, dont worry im doing ok just feeling a little emotional!! but in the good and bad emotions overwhelmed way, i dunno its just something maybe people think about too, like maybe thats all we get and refusal of just dumb fun sluttery isnt puritanical at all, its a way to be happier!! and the countless hours spent in my head thinking about meaningless relationships would be better spent on improving myself in a real non vanity based way or helping others or perhaps drinking too much, also i was glad to learn swv can still make me beer y teary eyed

― trife, Sunday, 9 March 2003 07:42 (twenty-three years ago)

i like "rain" even though it's cheesy as hell

― ron (ron), Sunday, 9 March 2003 07:47 (twenty-three years ago)

ok i think maybe in the end its just about those moments of pure adoration, like just before everything goes wrong, i have at least one of those with every person ive ever been involved with at all no matter how mismatched or whatever we were, but i had to work for those moments!! what if i just want to opt out of the game entirely!! ugh another part of me suspects im just fooling myself into another way to feign attractiveness AND not look dumb when i have no luck romantically, because if im not trying no sweat if nothing happens right!! and of course not being 'needy' will draw the sensitive ones, ha ha dear god

― trife, Sunday, 9 March 2003 08:10 (twenty-three years ago)

those moments seem to involve nature a lot too, maybe its a way to be closer to god!! thats another real issue for me...

― trife, Sunday, 9 March 2003 08:15 (twenty-three years ago)

emotions are boring

― duane, Sunday, 9 March 2003 23:03 (twenty-three years ago)

You should go on a singles cruise

― Millar (Millar), Sunday, 9 March 2003 23:10 (twenty-three years ago)

ethan did you get the f-word?

― mark p (Mark P), Sunday, 9 March 2003 23:12 (twenty-three years ago)

you never could take my advice could you

― jess (dubplatestyle), Monday, 10 March 2003 01:00 (twenty-three years ago)

four years pass...

Who remixed "Right Here (Human Nature)"?

― roxymuzak, Sunday, 24 February 2008 04:29 (eighteen years ago)

wow EMO MUCH LOL GET A LIVEJOURNAL GEESH

― The Brainwasher, Sunday, 24 February 2008 04:30 (eighteen years ago)

the sadness of my soul and the anguish of things that cannot ever be fulfilled, for do they exist? is overtaking me - I'm stuck in the fucking suburbs

― burt_stanton, Sunday, 24 February 2008 04:30 (eighteen years ago)

Can I say I really just bumped this because it is an SWV thread?!

― roxymuzak, Sunday, 24 February 2008 04:37 (eighteen years ago)

Nope

― burt_stanton, Sunday, 24 February 2008 04:41 (eighteen years ago)

Ok!

― roxymuzak, Sunday, 24 February 2008 04:42 (eighteen years ago)

Today I downloaded the entire 1993 Billboard Top 100 and listened to it all. This song is amazing!

I am in love with 1993.

― roxymuzak, Sunday, 24 February 2008 04:47 (eighteen years ago)

JEALOUS.

― Abbott, Sunday, 24 February 2008 06:40 (eighteen years ago)

Anyone can do it!

― roxymuzak, Sunday, 24 February 2008 06:46 (eighteen years ago)

I'm lazy about two things, and those are cleaning and downloading things. !!!

― Abbott, Sunday, 24 February 2008 06:48 (eighteen years ago)

i know i'm lazy about downloading except for on my super fast comp. at home. like right now i really want to hear the Breeders leak but this comp. is just too slow and i'm too lazy to bear with it.

― Surmounter, Sunday, 24 February 2008 06:54 (eighteen years ago)

e~~than~~mo

― mookieproof, Sunday, 24 February 2008 06:57 (eighteen years ago)

you know that dling is more about the speed of your connection than the computer itself, right?
xpost

― tehresa, Sunday, 24 February 2008 07:00 (eighteen years ago)

yea but the speed of the comp if it's really slow, doesn't help

― Surmounter, Sunday, 24 February 2008 07:01 (eighteen years ago)

Y'all realize that you don't have to actually power the download by pedaling a bike, right?

― roxymuzak, Sunday, 24 February 2008 07:08 (eighteen years ago)

roxy downloads like 5 things every half hour

― Surmounter, Sunday, 24 February 2008 07:11 (eighteen years ago)

Is that supposed to be a lot!?

― roxymuzak, Sunday, 24 February 2008 07:14 (eighteen years ago)

hahahaha

― Surmounter, Sunday, 24 February 2008 07:16 (eighteen years ago)

emotions are boring

-- duane, Sunday, 9 March 2003 23:03

http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/en/e/ea/Spinoza.jpg

― Bodrick III, Sunday, 24 February 2008 14:16 (eighteen years ago)

That painting makes me want to go get some pasta...

― snoball, Sunday, 24 February 2008 14:29 (eighteen years ago)

Old School Mix of this with the Wu is pretty good.

― Dom Passantino, Sunday, 24 February 2008 14:34 (eighteen years ago)

It's Teddy Riley + Neptunes, correct (Human Nature remix, I mean)?

― roxymuzak, Monday, 25 February 2008 03:40 (eighteen years ago)

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