i hate my life

I hope Anthony isn't reading this right now. I hope he's sleeping.

The mere fact that you feel rotten about this shows how truly wonderful you are as a human being. I would think you were a bad person if you didn't feel a thing, or if you celebrated this.

my sister hates me for who i am.

For what reason? Jealousy? Resentment? Intolerance? A lack of intellect? All of these things (the only ones I can think of) only reflect badly upon her own humanness, not yours.

my best friends are ignoring me, been cold or are in italy.

The ones who are ignoring you are letting you know indirectly that maybe it's time you moved on in regards to them. You can outgrow friends and it would be better in the end if you just let them go.

The ones who are cold are miserable bastards and it's best to live one's life without those types of people.

The ones who are in Italy will return to your life, guaranteed. You should look forward to that moment.

im broke and dont know how i will pay rent this month.

Ohhh, money problems. Yes, those are really hard to go through. Just have faith that you have the inner strength to move through this moment and see improvement.

im in debt.

See: Above.
school doesnt want to take me

You mean, schools in general or just a school. Because if it's "a" school, there are plenty of other schools out there. If there's one thing I've learned since high school about schools, it's that it's not worth it aiming for one singular school because you might miss out on feeling a part of a community that's more suited to you.

im a year from vancouver

A year goes by quite quickly. I've learned this as I've grown older.

i have no love life, dates string me along or dissapaite

So do I. Let's commiserate together, along with Julio (wherever he is). In my case, I can chalk it up to boys being muy macho. I'm sure we can chalk it up to something similar in your case.

my writing isnt going well.

That's what you think. I think it's admirable that you would try to improve upon your writing. I've just given up on mine, basically. Your level of writing is probably miles past the level of mine. And while that may not bring any comfort to you, at least know that I wish I was like you and people like you.

I wish the best for you.

you know the usual.

Hang in there. We're all on your side.

as for the old thing with dates stringing you along, well thats still a problem for me. but ive come to the conclusion that some women are just evil, they meet up and conspire, and they always make sure to come back and bite you in the ass just when you think you're gettin better. ok so i guess that aint a cheery thought, so just forget about those women, they aint worth the bother. theres a lot of more easy going women who wont do your head in. as for where they hang out, im still waiting for someone to tell me on that one.

but seriously theres a lot of beautiful things in the world outside (and this is coming from me, an ex-shut in). you gotta get outside of those problems and start something new. just take a drive or a walk to the nicest place you ever been, pop a Creedence tape in, and i guarentee you'll have a good time. sure there are still problems to deal with, but just for a while, get outside of them.