Yesterday on the first day of Summer I have fallen out on my colleage at work at the office. She was using me to react her own frustrations and had been practically in total mental stress for the whole day, having not eaten or slept for three days.
At the end of the day I could not bear it any longer (the last drop-moment), and I dropped all the mail on the floor and began to shout angrily at her that the situation was unbearable, that i could not work under this condition, that I was used as a stick to beat her rival colleage etc.
the whole day i had been trying to cope with the situation to have to work with a woman on the verge of a nervous breakdown, to do what I can, while I also had to work with her rival who's is manipulative and who seem to hate her too.
But my break out was actually the first time I have done this (in my life?): to be mad at someone instead of silently trying to stay calm and polite and then burst out crying at the end of the day at home. The situation at the office where I'm working now for almost two years has been going on for a very long time already.
My angriness came as a complete suprise to myself and to my colleage who was actually very happy that I did that.
What was your psycho-landmark, when you suddenly broke through your normal pattern of behaviour?
(There is an outburst of football hysteria just as I'm writing this in my neighborhood from the winning Turkish)
Look back in anger answers please here:
― erik, Saturday, 22 June 2002 00:00 (twenty-three years ago)
Once during a science lesson these boys were really winding me up -
people bullying me was a day-to-day occurence, but this was really
bad. Funnily enough I can't remember exactly what it was they were
saying, but I certainly do remember the outcome - I sort of blacked
out and the next thing I knew the ringleader type was trying to
shield his head from my pounding fist. As soon as I came to I stopped
in shock. It still unsettles me today that that happened.
― The All-Electric Christopher Lyons Video Show, Saturday, 22 June 2002 00:00 (twenty-three years ago)
hey erik. some rage can be good, keep them on their toes and all.
um, I don't really have any great soothingness to offer but I just
wanted to say don't worry.
― rainy, Saturday, 22 June 2002 00:00 (twenty-three years ago)
A girl in class was heckling me so i hit her with a copy of the
bible. That felt good though i got detention.
― Julio Desouza, Saturday, 22 June 2002 00:00 (twenty-three years ago)
this guy in my 7th grade homeroom used to bully me, and one day he
kept walking up and down the aisle and flicking me in the ear as he
passed my desk. after he walked away, i took my book (which was the
hardcover version of the first 4 books of the hitchhiker's guide to
the galaxy), came up behind him and bashed his skull with it. he fell
forward and hit his face off the locker in front of him. i actually
felt quite guilty.
― Dave M., Saturday, 22 June 2002 00:00 (twenty-three years ago)