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i am a 15 year old punk from a small town neat san antonio, texas.
for starters, i am a 'peace punk' and do not believe in
racism/fascism nor violence. however, i will say that skrewdriver
recorded some of the catchiest songs i have ever heard. i like all
the music up to the 'white power' 7" ep, and after i don't care for
it too much. this is mostly because the music sucks, but on a
fairly equal level, their stupid point of view. i personally don't
think that politics are as important as the music. cause after all,
john lennon can be heard saying 'no pakistanis' on at least a
handful of bootlegs that appeared in the subsequent decades after
the 'get back' fiasco. however, no one ever called lennon a
fascist, i suppose he may have redeemed himself in the public's eye
with the ever-present 'imagine.' peace.
― chris lea, Sunday, 23 December 2001 01:00 (twenty-two years ago) link
five months pass...
I find it pretty easy to separate an artist's shortcomings as a
person from my appreciation for the art. Miles Davis, Pablo Picasso,
Jackson Pollock, and Charles Bukowski were all complete assholes, but
I find their work all the more impressive for being good enough to
make this irrelevant. Then we have people like Varg Vikernes aka
Burzum, the infamous arsonist/murderer/nazi. I really, REALLY wanted
to hate Burzum, but the music is of such undeniable quality and
emotional resonance (within it's particular genre:definitely not for
everybody, sonically speaking), that I have found myself in the
awkward position of venerating the work of an artist who would gladly
exterminate a mongrel such as myself. I've never actually heard
Skrewdriver, but if their music is just a vehicle for their ideology,
then this is where they diverge from a band like Burzum. Vikernes'
singing is completely unintelligible, and even the transcriptions of
his lyrics don't seem to display the views he has expressed in
interviews. In addition, the Norwegian government confiscates all of
his post-incarceration profits, so buying his albums new doesn't
present a problem to me. Still. I regard Varg from a perspective
unique amongst my engagements with various artists: An ideological
enemy and an artistic kindred spirit, like a an ancient warrior's
deep respect for a formidable foe.
― Phil Berdecio, Friday, 31 May 2002 00:00 (twenty-two years ago) link
one month passes...
I have a tendency to rant and over-rationalize, to think and re-
think, etc. So I'm apologizing ahead of time if some of this becomes
rather convoluted, as I don't like to go back and correct what I have
written once it has been written. Anyway, here I go:
For a long while, I refused to buy music created
by "Nazis", "fascists", racists. This eventually evolved into me not
buying music by capitalists, anti-animal rights-types, anti-Earth-
types, people who champion the drug culture, and just about anyone
who wasn't a vegan straight-edger.
I became immersed in the whole "moral rush" and my life became more
and more limited. I became a total moralist, and in that I became
more and more reactionary, even though that was not at all my
intent. Along with my selection of music being very limited, my diet
and my mind was limited as well. I used to be so objective and open-
minded, but that all had changed.
After a time of growing sick from not having access to enough of the
right foods (as I refused to drive a car because of it's effects on
the environment), not knowing why I was doing what I was doing (I
mean the REAL question behind the questions - WHY?), and from pushing
people away from me I started to come apart. Something broke.
Slowly but surely everything became undone. I reached an extreme and
shattered internally. I fell apart, became depressed, considered
suicide often (sometimes as a result of the thinking that I'd be
better off dead than risking the chance of hurting another living
thing), and after multiple cycles of "recovery"-lapse-recovery-lapse-
etc., I fell into a state of utter nihilism and apathy.
In the end, I reasoned myself into not acting like or listening to
certain individuals because what I thought I was doing was right.
But if you pick deeper and deeper into a subject, you will eventually
reach a breaking point. If you follow the path of "moralism," you
will eventually have to question why you are following that path at
all, and you will realize that there is no real good reason for it,
for the meaning of life has not even been explained. How, if we
don't know why we are here, can we seperate right from wrong? Who
makes the distinctions? Who draws the lines? (For the same matter,
why shouldn't we seperate right from wrong - but in doing so, are you
making judgements based on fact, or opinion?)
I can't go into the many, many, MANY ordeals I went through as a
student of "philosophy." The books I've read and the ideas I
meditated upon eventually tore my mind apart in every direction. I
eventually came to the conclusion that life will always remain a
mystery, as nobody (at least from my perspective) is omniscient. We
can't be sure if there is or is not a higher power dictating to us
the difference between right and wrong. All we have to depend on is
us fallible human beings. And we are bound to fail miserably from
time to time. Even Einstien had wished he hadn't made the
discoveries he had made after he found out what they would be used
for, and do you think Christ would have preached had he knew he would
cause billions of people to kill in his name? (Tricky question for
Christians, as they will say that Christ knew/knows all - but then
was Christ a murderer? One question leads to the next, and to the
next, etc.)
You might say I'm a pessimist, but I don't see it that way. I see
the fact that we are all alone in the universe when it comes to
making any big decisions a chance to express one's self in a most
beautiful, human manner. Stand out. Listen to what you want, and
don't let anything - and I mean ANYTHING - stand in your way. Let
yourself BE YOURSELF, and fuck anyone who can't deal with that.
You are only who you are, and that's the most anyone can ask from
you. Just because someone refuses to listen to Burzum, Charles
Manson, David Koresh, Skrewdriver, etc. doesn't mean they are better
than someone who does - and it doesn't mean they are smarter,
either. I personally hate Skrewdriver - I think they suck. It has
nothing to do with the fact that I am not a racist. If I was a
racist, I'd still think they suck. But I am not ashamed of my
growing collection of Burzum albums. Does my rejection of
Skrewdriver and embrace of Burzum sound absurd? Life is absurd.
Deal with it. And the best way to deal with it: Just be yourself.
Listen to what YOU want.
Thanx. (And sorry again for my scattered brainwork.)
― Philip Gomez, Wednesday, 3 July 2002 00:00 (twenty-one years ago) link
two weeks pass...
Communism, fascism, nazism, racism, zionism really suck. The most
important thing in this matter is the artwork. I'm a student of
composition and I really like all types of music and I buy music for
its artistic and technique tools of construction. I look at myself
like a Straight-Edger and it doesn't restrain me to buy music by
Mauricio Kagel (one of my favorite composers), who used to compose
under effects of drugs such as LSD, or John Cage, a "mushroom eater"
who changed the contemporary music scene with his outstanding
concepts. No ones could blame by fascist or anti-semitic attitude
cause I like the Wagner's music, or being Zionist supporter cause I'm
a fan of Jewish musicians as Mendelsohnn, Schönberg or Baremboim. The
real problem is inside of people's brain, full of prejudice and
stereotypes. Recently, I bought "Romper Stomper" original soundtrack
and it's really exciting. It's a masterpiece of Oi. However, many
people said to me "Die you, f*cking nazi!" or an ironic "Sieg Heil",
but nobody acussed me of "leftist" when I was buying music by Test
Dept, Henry Cow or any Kraut Rock band (?). I've listened to NS bands
such as Skrewdriver, Brutal Attack, Fortress, Skullhead and so forth
and I think they are great musicians. I've listened to great
composers as Stockhausen, Berio, Saariaho, Lindberg or Dusapin cause
they are great musicians. I enjoy with Cecil Taylor's piano mastery
(black musician), with Pluton Svea's rage (white supremacist
musician), with GG Allin's sincerity, or with beauty anarco-freak pop
by Sonic Youth. The art (for instance, music) must express love,
hate, fear, sadness or whatever and the art is the tool.
Unfortunately, many people only want to see the most silly and
superficial thing in this matter.......
― Oscar Murcia, Monday, 22 July 2002 00:00 (twenty-one years ago) link