Hello.
The sun has been replaced with rain and clouds, and I believe I have strep throat. It's not the best of days, but it's not so bad.
I had a panic attack today, first one in weeks and weeks. I was at work, sitting at my desk, about to go for lunch. I wasn't thinking catastrophic thoughts just prior; it just happened. I was actually dialing my boyfriend's number, and just after he answered I told him I'd call him back and hung up. I could have just told him what was happening and he would've dropped everything, but I don't like to be a bother. Besides, it's hard to think straight when one is panicking. The most interesting part was that it only lasted about a minute, literally. I was a little shaky for a few seconds after, then that was it: all over. I even managed to go about the rest of my day quite normally, eat lunch and read the newspaper and everything. Which is good.
My psychologist is going away on holiday next week, and I'm away on holiday the week after, so yesterday was my last session for a couple of weeks. It went fairly well; he didn't try imagery with me yet, but it's something he definitely wants to have a go at. I'm willing, but don't feel ready yet. I think he could sense that and that's why he held off yesterday. Maybe in 2 weeks I'll be ready, who knows.
By the way, other than the inevitable antibiotics (GP appt tomorrow!), what can I do for my poor throat? I'm tired of lozenges - they all taste bad by now and are too sugary. Warm water with salt never works for me. Popsicles work well but again are too much sugar. I feel like I'm swallowing razor blades.
Take care,
-LJ
― I am Robocop, Sunday, 24 June 2007 08:08 (sixteen years ago) link
...Or so the doc says.
I went to see my GP today and it was one of those 'pat on the head' visits, as I knew it would be! He looked in my ears, down my throat, listened to my breathing and said things looked "suspect" but "nothing is infected" (this is supposed to make me feel better?) so he "can't do anything". He told me to get lots of sleep this weekend. That's it. Meanwhile, my throat is killing me, my ears feel plugged, and my left sinuses are blocked solid.
I'm sorry, but I'm so tired of hearing that. It took about 4 visits before he was willing to give me any help whatsoever with the IBS; at first he kept telling me "it's just stress" or it's "just your panic" and not to worry (!). Later, he wanted me to keep a food diary to know which foods triggered flare-ups and said to "just avoid them" and I'd feel better. (Doesn't he think I know by now which foods bother me? And that I obviously don't eat them when I'm having a flare-up?) Well, it's been over a month since then, and the only thing that's helped the IBS is CBT and a prescription for Dicetel (so much for food diaries). I understand (and actually appreciate) that he's not big on pill-pushing, because just being handed a prescription right off the bat isn't so fantastic either. But either way, I feel he's not really listening to me.
I don't think he does it on purpose; I am young and otherwise quite healthy. But still. I may be young, but I know my body. I can usually tell if something's going to develop into an infection or something more serious than a common cold. The whole take-two-asprins-and-call-me-in-the-morning approach is wearing thin.
Sorry for the rant. I don't feel so terrible that I can't function, but I took the day off work anyways, to conserve energy. I read the newspapers, took a bath, made a big vat of soup, and had naps all day :)
― I am Robocop, Sunday, 24 June 2007 08:10 (sixteen years ago) link
Ok, Gosh...... where do I start? First of all, I had finally plucked up enough courage and determination to drive to my appointment...... and I get out unlock the car, get in, belt up...... and the bloody thing wouldn't start!!!! I tried at least 10 times.... but it just wouldn't kick over (this is not helping my nerves any at this point)........ although, it's a good thing I was 30mins early. So I went back inside and called a taxi.
Then I arrive at what I think is the Community Centre, walk inside (after a quick smoke to calm me), and I am faced with over 20 little old ladies sitting down playing Bingo!!! (I might like to add here that I just wanted to run right away...... I can't do this!) Then a lady walks up to me n I ask her where I can find Ken (my nurse)..... she is friendly enough, and shows me where I have to go...... (I went to the wrong building!!)
Finally, I'm in the waiting room....... my mind is ticking over, (I don't know for sure if I should be here or not... What do I tell this bloke anyways? ra ra ra!) I can feel that headache..... it's just pounding by now and I want to get home.
Then I meet Ken, he is a middle aged man, with a friendly face. In his office I surprisingly feel relaxed, and I can feel my headache subsiding (altho, I know it is still there - just not as bad now). We have a chat for a while about everything on my mind..... Ken reassures me that I'm not crazy!!! (I know this now - I mean, REALLY KNOW IT).
I have a few things to read and a questionaire to fill out, and I have another appointment to see him on the 21st May. (Piece of cake ;) - I hope)
So, all in all, I think I did pretty well.
Well, there you go guys....... That was my day so far! (And it's still not even lunch time - What will my afternoon be like???)
Thanks for your support.........
― I am Robocop, Sunday, 24 June 2007 08:12 (sixteen years ago) link
http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=2350638677
― Dom Passantino, Sunday, 24 June 2007 21:27 (sixteen years ago) link
http://www.hawaiitheatre.com/a23.gif
― gr8080, Monday, 25 June 2007 08:24 (sixteen years ago) link
This is a slept-on thread.
― Dom Passantino, Monday, 31 December 2007 15:54 (sixteen years ago) link
he asked me to post this:
http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/main.jhtml?xml=/news/2008/03/27/wwombat127.xml
― banriquit, Thursday, 27 March 2008 17:17 (sixteen years ago) link
i am a wombat
― chaki, Thursday, 27 March 2008 17:23 (sixteen years ago) link
Louis Jagger (Cambridge) wrote at 5:20pm haha someone who i'm sure can't see your wall posted that two minutes later, news spreads fast eh Wall-to-Wall - Write on Louis's Wall - Message - Delete
― banriquit, Thursday, 27 March 2008 17:24 (sixteen years ago) link
LJ JUST COME BACK ALREADY SHEESH
― chaki, Thursday, 27 March 2008 17:27 (sixteen years ago) link
is he coming back??
― velko, Saturday, 7 November 2009 16:59 (fourteen years ago) link
it's kinda scary thinking that he knows how to drive, unless the stuff above in this thread is fake.
― sarahel, Saturday, 7 November 2009 18:06 (fourteen years ago) link
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a6w1ogYRptk
― сверх (nakhchivan), Friday, 29 April 2016 10:54 (seven years ago) link