fuck cancer

fuck. get better soon, im losted.

Thanks. I should be okay but I was scared for a bit.

i had a benign (that is, not cancerous, it was still wreaking a lot of havoc) tumor in my throat taken out last year, it was indeed gross and the recovery ended up being a lot rougher than anyone prepared me for. often doctors make outpatient surgery out to be a big nothing, but my whole body was sore and stiff for a week afterward. anyway, this probably won't happen to you. :) i hope you get rid of that thing, and get better quickly.

Our office manager was just sitting right over there close to mid december, though she wasn't feeling great. Cut to last night, she passed away. So fucking quick, and her poor daughter had just lost her father (office manager's ex-husband) a little over a month prior. Gutted for her, mostly.

So the days of one of my oldest London friends are numbered, and I've had to hear about it from another friend because the friend in question has only told a few people due to stiff-upper-lip issues. Fuck cancer with a rusty chainsaw. Just... fuck it.

Aw, sorry to hear that, Suzy.

Just... fuck it.

^ amen to that, and best wishes to all herein

I would call this revive timely but that's too positive

one of my best friends, former boss, amazing dude just got a diagnosis (yesterday) of 4 months to live, possibly a year or more w/chemo

:(

― sleeve, Tuesday, March 4, 2014 2:39 PM (10 months ago)

this dude beat it for a while, but now it is back again. the chemo options only give him a "possible" extension of life around 20% of the time (it's bladder cancer but in the lymph now), and he said "fuck it" to this latest round. I'm really gonna miss him, looking forward to spending some time together in the next few months :(

this dude beat it for a while, but now it is back again.

This. I really fucking hate this. Wishing the best for all.

Not being able to say anything to my friend is excruciatingly difficult. When you've been a cancer survivor for most of your life, as I have, there is also a kind of rolling survivor's guilt that is always present and spikes whenever something like this intersects with life.

yah that's hard, I feel that. my friend is also keeping his latest news private for now, so I can only talk about it with two other people. he'll go public eventually, the last letter he wrote was so classy - "while I have always been conceptually opposed to chemotherapy, 3 to 6 months is simply not long enough for me to wrap up all of my loose ends" <3

My friend has had an interesting week. After two gamma knife surgeries, his last two scans have shown no more brain tumors. However, he's got two small ones on his back and one GNARLY one that grew from quarter sized to baseball sized in about 3 weeks. He had it removed Friday, but not before he posted this disgusting photo to instagram.

WARNING: GNARLY AS HELL: http://instagram.com/p/yxCSejjvWO/

I love how straightforward and honest he's been every step of the way. It's been a huge help for both himself and his friends and family.

Also, if anyone ever has to get Yervoy treatments they do some serious shit to a body, even though they help a ton. After six treatments he has near nightly vertigo attacks and problems with his depth perception, both of which are permanent for as long as he lives. Should make his band's tour next month a bit of a challenge.

This is worth reading.

http://www.latimes.com/opinion/op-ed/la-oe-becklund-breast-cancer-komen-20150222-story.html#page=1

my darling father died the week before last. he'd had cancer for a long time, and during the past couple of months he had been weakening, but still the end came with shocking speed. i arrived in nz a few hours before he died. he wasn't conscious by then; we said our last words on the phone before i left. i visited for ten days in january and had a lovely time with him, which is a consolation. i'll miss him very much, he was extremely kind and funny and clever and self-deprecating. rip my beautiful father.

Sorry to hear that, Estela. The distance must have been particularly rough.

thanks, andrew. i had to accept a long time ago that i could not get there very quickly or easily. i'm so glad i was there in january and have visited him as much as possible during the past few years (as have my siblings.)

<3

sorry to hear this estela - sounds like he passed on some of those traits you praise

yep, and it is surely good that you were there, i hope you & your siblings had some kind words for each other

Sorry to hear Estela.

So sorry for your loss Estella.

Sorry, Estela.

Deep condolences. I've no doubt he was remarkable.

I'm sorry, estela. My condolences to you and your family.

so sorry estela. glad you have good memories to hold onto through this loss

<3

thank you all very much. people have been really kind and it's helped a lot.

All the best for the next few weeks estela, hope you found some solace being around yr family.

thinking of you e.

I'm so sorry Estela and I hope you are okay. I'm very glad you were able to get home and be with your family. Living overseas is horrible when a family member is ill. Hugs.

our sincere condolences, estela - sleeve & laurie

My condolences, too.

estela, all my best

sounds like you were good to each other. i'm sorry he's gone.

e- Much love, and always more love.

thank you, i deeply appreciate all of you for this.

Oh, estela. <3

darling estela, i am thinking of you and sending much love to your fine family.

also, fuck cancer :-(

So sorry, estella.

Oh estela I'm so sorry for your loss, much love x

estela, I am so sorry - thinking of you, wishing you and your family comfort in this sad time.

I'm so sorry, estela.

My love and condolences, estela.

oooh e.

so, sorry to hear about your loss, but you clearly have some fantastic memories, and that's very special.

3 years on from the exit of one evil lump from my world, a new fucker enters.

this time, the emotional attachement is not quite as intense (my father as opposed to my life partner), but due to my experience, there seems to be a demand on my groove for advise for all those concerned.

whereas the reality for me is : no. i do no want to deal with this again. f*ck off and leave me alone.

thanks again, everyone.

i'm very sorry about your father, mark. cancer is so cunning and relentless and its course so horrible for everyone involved. and you have been through so much already, it's just cruel. my best wishes to you and to your father and the rest of your family.

Nothing special to add besides good thoughts to all of you.

My cousin Alan was just diagnosed with cancer of the thymus, a cancer sufficiently rare that only about 400 people a year are diagnosed. Don't know what stage it is yet, but if it's III or IV, the 5-year survivability rate is approximately a coin toss.

This comes after he, a lifelong NYC resident, literally, just moved across the country to Palm Springs, and has no family or support system out there. I may be going out there during his treatment to help him out, take him to appointments, etc.

well, fuck that.

good luck to you and him.

Phil D., if you can do that it will be huge for him. Also hook up with the Cancer Society, I don't have experience in the US, but they should have a ton of resources/staff/volunteers to help out people in those situations. I'm so sorry this is happening.