i was just venting. i don't want to guide anyone. i do make an effort to be aware of my surroundings though and i interact with a lot of people who don't do that. and it does frustrate me sometimes. i just try to be patient. there is a slower pace where i live that i'm still not entirely used to. i shop regularly at a market with a big older/elderly clientele and i have learned to move slower when i'm in there. people get startled in there if you are moving too fast or your voice is too loud. i just do what the natives do. one of the reasons i don't own an ipod or a cell phone is that i really do want to be aware of what is around me. and i totally live in my head/own world too! but i adjust when i have to. and a lot of people don't. but maybe i am just older and crankier too. plus, i quit smoking....
and i'm also not the best at social cues. the eye contact thing. other things. i'm sure i confuse people sometimes. i have nervous energy. and that can fluster people. sometimes i do miss being around people with similar nervous energy. city people. people who talk fast. that's why i liked going to those EMP conferences and hanging out with ILXors.
i think i'm also just super-aware of how people are acting/talking in public. and i do end up obsessing over rude (perceived or otherwise) behavior. there is probably a pill to get rid of that.
― scott seward, Thursday, 15 June 2017 19:27 (six years ago) link