I mean, I'm sitting here in a deluxe office building in the sky, sippin' some coffee and noddin' my head to a little Alice Coltrate while I simultaneously hold down a job and post on a message board, the sun is shining, the birds are presumably singing although I can't hear to confirm, I'm fed and clothed and bathed and have a home to return to after I punch out at the end of a long day. My life is positively paradisal in comparison to millions of other people who've existed throughout history. How could I not be fine? How am I not fine? What is wrong with me that I'm not fine? So many questions, so few answers. But it's fine, really. Look at me. Don't I look fine? Okay, forget how I look. I'm telling you: I'm fiiiiiiiiiiiine.
― Blag Blingeeborp (Old Lunch), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 19:13 (five years ago) link
I don't know who Alice Coltrate is.
― Blag Blingeeborp (Old Lunch), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 19:14 (five years ago) link
but the primary reason I am not fine is that at a certain point in the past decade (I'm not sure when exactly the point happened, or if it was a single point at all; there were certainly areas of concentration) I passed the point where I could no longer succeed in life and would now be a failure permanently, and there are so many decades to endure in that state that I would prefer not to. this is not the same thing as being suicidal -- I just want to stress that up front -- just an acknowledgement that for the next several decades there is nothing there for me.
there's also a generational counterpart to it as well, in that my generation has been derailed to the point of permanent failure. and there is no path in sight to un-derailment, no matter how many republicans crow about how the economy is great now (it is not great now).
― aloha darkness my old friend (katherine), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 19:14 (five years ago) link
That is a wonderful Chekhov passage, KM.
I guess one way to explain things is that I always carry a hammer and I compulsively strike it against my head a few times a day. On a certain level it makes me feel un-fine but on another level I think it's probably a sign that I'm more fine than I'd like to admit.
― Blag Blingeeborp (Old Lunch), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 19:20 (five years ago) link
like this is the millennial cliche or whatever but there is something deeply existentially depressing about the fact that I'll most likely never be able to live by myself, let alone own a house or have children or any of the baseline milestone markers of non-failure that were instilled in me
― aloha darkness my old friend (katherine), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 19:21 (five years ago) link
Those things are true and will probably continue to be true for me except that I'm like a generation older than the millennial generation. But it's fine. I'm fine. This is all very fine, indeed.
― Blag Blingeeborp (Old Lunch), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 19:28 (five years ago) link
It's kinda cool how people's expectations tend to slough off after a point. Like I can't even remember the last time my mom made an oblique reference to any theoretical kids that I will almost certainly not be fathering at this late stage. It's fine!
― Blag Blingeeborp (Old Lunch), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 19:31 (five years ago) link
I didn't really turn "fine" until I learned how to accept that I was highly imperfect and I'll stay that way no matter what. Just getting through the day without major mishaps is as high as my ambition reaches these days.
― A is for (Aimless), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 19:33 (five years ago) link
The Yoko Oto of Jazz iirc
― Οὖτις, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 19:35 (five years ago) link
It's kinda cool how people's expectations tend to slough off after a point.
the entire problem is that mine don't
― aloha darkness my old friend (katherine), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 19:35 (five years ago) link
yeah, same
― Karl Malone, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 19:37 (five years ago) link
I have this high level of anxiety that keeps me motivated and working on projects and thinking, hey, I could still achieve one or more of those lofty dreams I have, sure, why not, but at the same time I have gotten much better at accepting that maybe I will actually just wind up continuing to work a series of boring jobs until I retire with nowhere near enough money to live off of. And that's fine.
― Blag Blingeeborp (Old Lunch), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 19:41 (five years ago) link
Like my wants aren't quite so driven by expectation anymore.
― Blag Blingeeborp (Old Lunch), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 19:42 (five years ago) link
"Don't worry about me. Are you okay?"
All. The. Time.
― I Never Promised You A Hose Harden (Eric H.)
This is the correct answer, because you are other people.
Anyone trying to tell you you're your own person is probably trying to sell you something.
― oder doch?, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 19:43 (five years ago) link
I am finally fine after the worst 8 month period of my life. But I'm now at peace, can breathe, feels good
― a roomba of one's own (rip van wanko), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 19:48 (five years ago) link
you think you're you. you don't know who you are. you're not you. you're everyone else
― princess of hell (BradNelson), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 19:50 (five years ago) link
<3 rvw
― princess of hell (BradNelson), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 19:52 (five years ago) link
best to you BN, you are a great presence here
― a roomba of one's own (rip van wanko), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 19:56 (five years ago) link
everyone posting itt is a great presence, i guess all of the shitheads are fine lol
― evol j, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 20:00 (five years ago) link
Had a very tough year work-wise where I definitely wasn't fine for about 6 months or so, but somehow coped with it. Mainly by just keeping going without self-destructing or giving up - and I sought outside help.
As a result, I'm more confident now in my ability to deal with things when I'm not fine.
― Luna Schlosser, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 20:21 (five years ago) link
I sought outside help
i def need to do this even though i can't really afford to
― princess of hell (BradNelson), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 20:25 (five years ago) link
F.I.N.E. / AerosmithHot wax drippin'Honey what do you sayI got a brand new recordThat I gotta playShe says not now boyBut I did anyway'Cause I'm ready, so readyLip smackin' paddy wackin'Walkin' the streetI got a rag top chevyNow I'm back on my feetI get an EMHO woodyWhen I sit in the seat'Cause I'm ready, so ready, yeahI got a girlfriend with the hoochy-coochy eyes'Cause in the pink she look so fineShe got the cracker jack now all I wants the prize, honey heh heh hehI know these hookers down on forty-second street, butIll-gotten booty's not my styleI'll take a rain check 'til I get back on my feet, honey heh heh yeah'Cause I'mAlrightWhip crackin' floozyWay outta controlShe got a new kinda jellyIn her jelly rollI got the right key babyBut the wrong keyholeAnd I'm ready, so readyI'm a red hot pistolAnd I'm ready to fightI'm a thirty eight specialOn a Saturday nightI'm gonna kiss your boo-boo honeyMake it alright'Cause I'm ready, so ready oohI got a cruiser with a bimbo on the dashIt kinda keeps my ass in lineOne little french kiss honey that's my kinda trash, yeahMy brand new baby's lookin F-I-N-E, fineThe sun is shinin' every dayAin't got no rubbers now it's rainin all the time, honeyBut I'mAlrightI feel like I'm hung up on the lineI'd die for you but we were partners in the crimeEverything about you is so F-I-N-E, fineLet's put our clothes back onAnd by the way girlWhat's your name again, uh huhAlrightPitched my tentIn the pouring rainI got a back seat loverThat's callin' my nameShe gonna blow my coverShe's hot as a flameBut I'm ready, so ready, owI shove my tongueRight between your cheeksI haven't made love nowFor twenty-five weeksI hear that you're so tightYour lovin' squeaksAnd I'm ready, so readyYeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeahYeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
― calstars, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 20:30 (five years ago) link
Tie yourself to the mast, my friend, and the storm will end
― brimstead, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 20:43 (five years ago) link
have not been fine since june but hoping to get back there this fall
― ciderpress, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 20:48 (five years ago) link
often "i'm fine" is just a way of getting ppl to leave you alone, the most basic display of etiquette (in the "doing what somebody else wants as if you wanted to do it" sense)
as a dismissal of the interior and personal to reassure the public it's hard to beat. "everything's fine" is so ripe w irony, quelle chris & jean grae put out a record w that title this year and my friend socrates wrote a book by that title a few years back. it's quite "no surprises" but it's def a big mood rn
― ogmor, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 20:48 (five years ago) link
anyway I don't think "i'm fine" means much until it's not true
― ogmor, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 20:50 (five years ago) link
"I can't deny I'm paralysed from the insideEveryday I wake to feel the sameAnd every time you ask me how I'm feelingI just smile and tell you that I'm fine"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lYcp1bUb4lU
recently obsessed with this Hazel English song, probably the most familiar encapsulation of what depression/anxiety actually feels like on an everyday level
― boxedjoy, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 20:50 (five years ago) link
I remember how you loved metime was all we had until the day we said goodbyeand i remember EVERY MOMENT...
― fuck the NRA (Neanderthal), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 20:57 (five years ago) link
need another category for "I'm fine thanks to anti-anxiety meds"
― Darin, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 21:05 (five years ago) link
yeah those help a lot but mostly to turn "complete and abject panic" to "dissatisfaction with my life." symptom not problem, not that I enjoy having the symptom around
― aloha darkness my old friend (katherine), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 21:06 (five years ago) link
yeah, I suppose ymmv, but I'm better off
― Darin, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 21:08 (five years ago) link
I know you fine, but how you doin
― Οὖτις, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 21:12 (five years ago) link
are you fine? because you are a penalty imposed by judicial process upon a miscreant in the form of a financial transaction to their relative disadvantage
― nashwan, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 21:41 (five years ago) link
Lol
― Οὖτις, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 21:47 (five years ago) link
i drank from the fountains
― mookieproof, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 21:54 (five years ago) link
^ fun fact, my 7th grade history teacher, accompanied by my middle school band director, played that song as the faculty act in the talent show one year.
― faculty w1fe (silby), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 21:56 (five years ago) link
two girls at my school preformed it at the talent show -- two years in a row
― a roomba of one's own (rip van wanko), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 21:57 (five years ago) link
fine atm, food drop today - beer in the fridge. i'm a low stakes person when it comes to what makes my day alright
tomorrow who knows.
― Ross, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 22:36 (five years ago) link
Is "fine" the only word that is used almost exclusively to mean something other than its actual primary definition?
White lies in general depend on saying something one does not genuinely think true.
― Accattony! Accattoni! Accattoné! (j.lu), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 23:28 (five years ago) link
Fucked UpInsecureNeuroticEmotional
(thanks rehab)
― a roomba of one's own (rip van wanko), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 01:09 (five years ago) link
surprised at how many people are registering as fine
― the late great, Wednesday, 29 August 2018 03:21 (five years ago) link
It's an automatic response. How am I? I am fine. (Narrator: He wasn't fine.)
― Blag Blingeeborp (Old Lunch), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 03:22 (five years ago) link
right i guess that’s already been discussed
― the late great, Wednesday, 29 August 2018 03:24 (five years ago) link
The only ilxor who actually seems to be doing fine is darraghmac
― 🦅 (Trϵϵship), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 03:25 (five years ago) link
he’s fine like when uk people say the weather is fine, i think
― the late great, Wednesday, 29 August 2018 03:27 (five years ago) link
It's like there's this veneer over everything that looks and seems mostly fine but seemingly insignificant things will disturb the veneer and make it briefly billow up and I catch a glimpse underneath and hoo boy is it ever a mess under there, and the disturbance when it occurs reminds me of just how thin a sheath there is between fine and not fine, how fragile that membrane and how easily it can get shifted out of place or possibly torn away altogether. But then I calm down and breathe and remember that I'm being perhaps a tad melodramatic and overusing purple prose to describe relatively prosaic phenomena and I kinda shake my head and chuckle at the sweet sad folly of humankind and then the veneer flaps out madly and a pair of razor-sharp teeth sink into the back of my neck and drag me into the howling void beyond.
Just joshin'. But it feels like that could be a thing, sometimes. But no, really, I'm fine. Thank you for asking.
― Blag Blingeeborp (Old Lunch), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 03:34 (five years ago) link
lol
― Dan S, Wednesday, 29 August 2018 03:36 (five years ago) link
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Xi8NvSetZc
― Stoop Crone (Trayce), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 03:37 (five years ago) link
I was such a stan for that song when it came out and so sure she was gonna be a big star. I'm sure my friends at the time did not think I was fine.
― Blag Blingeeborp (Old Lunch), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 03:40 (five years ago) link
Soon as there are roses, I want no roses.I want them only when there can't be any. What should I do with the things, many, On which, at will, any hand closes?
I never want the night except when dawnIs making it melt into the gold and azure. That of which my soul is unsure Is what I must possess, that only.
For what?...If I knew that, I would not formVerses to say I don't, even now, know it. I have a soul that's poor and cold... Ah, with what alms shall I warm her?... I am fine.
― for i, sock in enumerate (Sufjan Grafton), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 04:50 (five years ago) link
i'm fine. don't want to be at work tho
― Give me a Chad Smith-type feel (map), Monday, 2 November 2020 19:24 (three years ago) link
congrats on the new job brimstead
― Give me a Chad Smith-type feel (map), Monday, 2 November 2020 19:25 (three years ago) link
I just ctrl-fed "foine" and decided I need new jokes
― shout-out to his family (DJP), Monday, 2 November 2020 19:41 (three years ago) link
There are plenty of dad jokes available, guaranteed to be endlessly recyclable.
― the unappreciated charisma of cows (Aimless), Monday, 2 November 2020 19:52 (three years ago) link
Hungover on my day off...getting really tired of losing time / days to sleep when I could be enjoying my time off. Also left a wheel of brie on the counter overnight
― calstars, Monday, 2 November 2020 21:43 (three years ago) link
ty map <3glad to be (virtually) around all you fine folks in this fucked up time <3
― brimstead, Monday, 2 November 2020 22:10 (three years ago) link