I have this high level of anxiety that keeps me motivated and working on projects and thinking, hey, I could still achieve one or more of those lofty dreams I have, sure, why not, but at the same time I have gotten much better at accepting that maybe I will actually just wind up continuing to work a series of boring jobs until I retire with nowhere near enough money to live off of. And that's fine.
― Blag Blingeeborp (Old Lunch), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 19:41 (five years ago) link
Like my wants aren't quite so driven by expectation anymore.
― Blag Blingeeborp (Old Lunch), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 19:42 (five years ago) link
"Don't worry about me. Are you okay?"
All. The. Time.
― I Never Promised You A Hose Harden (Eric H.)
This is the correct answer, because you are other people.
Anyone trying to tell you you're your own person is probably trying to sell you something.
― oder doch?, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 19:43 (five years ago) link
I am finally fine after the worst 8 month period of my life. But I'm now at peace, can breathe, feels good
― a roomba of one's own (rip van wanko), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 19:48 (five years ago) link
you think you're you. you don't know who you are. you're not you. you're everyone else
― princess of hell (BradNelson), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 19:50 (five years ago) link
<3 rvw
― princess of hell (BradNelson), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 19:52 (five years ago) link
best to you BN, you are a great presence here
― a roomba of one's own (rip van wanko), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 19:56 (five years ago) link
everyone posting itt is a great presence, i guess all of the shitheads are fine lol
― evol j, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 20:00 (five years ago) link
Had a very tough year work-wise where I definitely wasn't fine for about 6 months or so, but somehow coped with it. Mainly by just keeping going without self-destructing or giving up - and I sought outside help.
As a result, I'm more confident now in my ability to deal with things when I'm not fine.
― Luna Schlosser, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 20:21 (five years ago) link
I sought outside help
i def need to do this even though i can't really afford to
― princess of hell (BradNelson), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 20:25 (five years ago) link
F.I.N.E. / AerosmithHot wax drippin'Honey what do you sayI got a brand new recordThat I gotta playShe says not now boyBut I did anyway'Cause I'm ready, so readyLip smackin' paddy wackin'Walkin' the streetI got a rag top chevyNow I'm back on my feetI get an EMHO woodyWhen I sit in the seat'Cause I'm ready, so ready, yeahI got a girlfriend with the hoochy-coochy eyes'Cause in the pink she look so fineShe got the cracker jack now all I wants the prize, honey heh heh hehI know these hookers down on forty-second street, butIll-gotten booty's not my styleI'll take a rain check 'til I get back on my feet, honey heh heh yeah'Cause I'mAlrightWhip crackin' floozyWay outta controlShe got a new kinda jellyIn her jelly rollI got the right key babyBut the wrong keyholeAnd I'm ready, so readyI'm a red hot pistolAnd I'm ready to fightI'm a thirty eight specialOn a Saturday nightI'm gonna kiss your boo-boo honeyMake it alright'Cause I'm ready, so ready oohI got a cruiser with a bimbo on the dashIt kinda keeps my ass in lineOne little french kiss honey that's my kinda trash, yeahMy brand new baby's lookin F-I-N-E, fineThe sun is shinin' every dayAin't got no rubbers now it's rainin all the time, honeyBut I'mAlrightI feel like I'm hung up on the lineI'd die for you but we were partners in the crimeEverything about you is so F-I-N-E, fineLet's put our clothes back onAnd by the way girlWhat's your name again, uh huhAlrightPitched my tentIn the pouring rainI got a back seat loverThat's callin' my nameShe gonna blow my coverShe's hot as a flameBut I'm ready, so ready, owI shove my tongueRight between your cheeksI haven't made love nowFor twenty-five weeksI hear that you're so tightYour lovin' squeaksAnd I'm ready, so readyYeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeahYeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
― calstars, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 20:30 (five years ago) link
Tie yourself to the mast, my friend, and the storm will end
― brimstead, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 20:43 (five years ago) link
have not been fine since june but hoping to get back there this fall
― ciderpress, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 20:48 (five years ago) link
often "i'm fine" is just a way of getting ppl to leave you alone, the most basic display of etiquette (in the "doing what somebody else wants as if you wanted to do it" sense)
as a dismissal of the interior and personal to reassure the public it's hard to beat. "everything's fine" is so ripe w irony, quelle chris & jean grae put out a record w that title this year and my friend socrates wrote a book by that title a few years back. it's quite "no surprises" but it's def a big mood rn
― ogmor, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 20:48 (five years ago) link
anyway I don't think "i'm fine" means much until it's not true
― ogmor, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 20:50 (five years ago) link
"I can't deny I'm paralysed from the insideEveryday I wake to feel the sameAnd every time you ask me how I'm feelingI just smile and tell you that I'm fine"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lYcp1bUb4lU
recently obsessed with this Hazel English song, probably the most familiar encapsulation of what depression/anxiety actually feels like on an everyday level
― boxedjoy, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 20:50 (five years ago) link
I remember how you loved metime was all we had until the day we said goodbyeand i remember EVERY MOMENT...
― fuck the NRA (Neanderthal), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 20:57 (five years ago) link
need another category for "I'm fine thanks to anti-anxiety meds"
― Darin, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 21:05 (five years ago) link
yeah those help a lot but mostly to turn "complete and abject panic" to "dissatisfaction with my life." symptom not problem, not that I enjoy having the symptom around
― aloha darkness my old friend (katherine), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 21:06 (five years ago) link
yeah, I suppose ymmv, but I'm better off
― Darin, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 21:08 (five years ago) link
I know you fine, but how you doin
― Οὖτις, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 21:12 (five years ago) link
are you fine? because you are a penalty imposed by judicial process upon a miscreant in the form of a financial transaction to their relative disadvantage
― nashwan, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 21:41 (five years ago) link
Lol
― Οὖτις, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 21:47 (five years ago) link
i drank from the fountains
― mookieproof, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 21:54 (five years ago) link
^ fun fact, my 7th grade history teacher, accompanied by my middle school band director, played that song as the faculty act in the talent show one year.
― faculty w1fe (silby), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 21:56 (five years ago) link
two girls at my school preformed it at the talent show -- two years in a row
― a roomba of one's own (rip van wanko), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 21:57 (five years ago) link
fine atm, food drop today - beer in the fridge. i'm a low stakes person when it comes to what makes my day alright
tomorrow who knows.
― Ross, Tuesday, 28 August 2018 22:36 (five years ago) link
Is "fine" the only word that is used almost exclusively to mean something other than its actual primary definition?
White lies in general depend on saying something one does not genuinely think true.
― Accattony! Accattoni! Accattoné! (j.lu), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 23:28 (five years ago) link
Fucked UpInsecureNeuroticEmotional
(thanks rehab)
― a roomba of one's own (rip van wanko), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 01:09 (five years ago) link
surprised at how many people are registering as fine
― the late great, Wednesday, 29 August 2018 03:21 (five years ago) link
It's an automatic response. How am I? I am fine. (Narrator: He wasn't fine.)
― Blag Blingeeborp (Old Lunch), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 03:22 (five years ago) link
right i guess that’s already been discussed
― the late great, Wednesday, 29 August 2018 03:24 (five years ago) link
The only ilxor who actually seems to be doing fine is darraghmac
― 🦅 (Trϵϵship), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 03:25 (five years ago) link
he’s fine like when uk people say the weather is fine, i think
― the late great, Wednesday, 29 August 2018 03:27 (five years ago) link
It's like there's this veneer over everything that looks and seems mostly fine but seemingly insignificant things will disturb the veneer and make it briefly billow up and I catch a glimpse underneath and hoo boy is it ever a mess under there, and the disturbance when it occurs reminds me of just how thin a sheath there is between fine and not fine, how fragile that membrane and how easily it can get shifted out of place or possibly torn away altogether. But then I calm down and breathe and remember that I'm being perhaps a tad melodramatic and overusing purple prose to describe relatively prosaic phenomena and I kinda shake my head and chuckle at the sweet sad folly of humankind and then the veneer flaps out madly and a pair of razor-sharp teeth sink into the back of my neck and drag me into the howling void beyond.
Just joshin'. But it feels like that could be a thing, sometimes. But no, really, I'm fine. Thank you for asking.
― Blag Blingeeborp (Old Lunch), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 03:34 (five years ago) link
lol
― Dan S, Wednesday, 29 August 2018 03:36 (five years ago) link
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Xi8NvSetZc
― Stoop Crone (Trayce), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 03:37 (five years ago) link
I was such a stan for that song when it came out and so sure she was gonna be a big star. I'm sure my friends at the time did not think I was fine.
― Blag Blingeeborp (Old Lunch), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 03:40 (five years ago) link
Soon as there are roses, I want no roses.I want them only when there can't be any. What should I do with the things, many, On which, at will, any hand closes?
I never want the night except when dawnIs making it melt into the gold and azure. That of which my soul is unsure Is what I must possess, that only.
For what?...If I knew that, I would not formVerses to say I don't, even now, know it. I have a soul that's poor and cold... Ah, with what alms shall I warm her?... I am fine.
― for i, sock in enumerate (Sufjan Grafton), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 04:50 (five years ago) link
fernando pessoa as guy who is fine
― for i, sock in enumerate (Sufjan Grafton), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 05:04 (five years ago) link
Don't worry about me. Are you okay? <--- this will always be my answer
― wayne trotsky (Simon H.), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 06:11 (five years ago) link
I've never been better, am fine, not so fine and miserable simultaneously. Twas ever thus. It's like Vic Chesnutt sings:
I'm keeping it on the roadI'm keeping it on the roadCan't say I didn't rattle the loadBut I'm keeping it on the road
― lbi's life of limitless european glamour (Le Bateau Ivre), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 07:14 (five years ago) link
I’m medium by dint of extremes balancing out, but at least there haven’t been so many low extremes lately! It’s been about a year since I last did anything really self-destructive, and I feel much more in control. Ditched ineffective publishing career at 29, and feeling much better having returned to uni to study child psychotherapy. It felt like an impossible sea change at the time, especially with no money, but good support and willpower won through. Oh and being in therapy for five years has gradually accumulated a great deal of good. If anyone is considering it but worried about the cost, I’d recommend looking around to see if any therapists keep open ‘low income’ slots, as many do.
As for self-expectations about all the other many dreams I’ve had, I’m trying to give phantasy some credit. Like, maybe imagining some of these things is a good enough placeholder for experiencing them, and maybe I can vicariously enjoy other outcomes through students, or indeed Gilmore Girls. (Though I’m not sure what that dream would be...I’ve probably wanted to run a hotel at some point)
Pessoa is the best.
― tangenttangent, Wednesday, 29 August 2018 08:13 (five years ago) link
ever since i came to accept that the apocalypse actually did happen in 2012 i've been... adequate
― my dream is to never be a champion (bizarro gazzara), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 08:51 (five years ago) link
just dropping in to confirm that im actually fine not american fine or british weather fine
― flaneur brayin (darraghmac), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 10:23 (five years ago) link
I'm finer since I stopped wearing these horrible 2nd hand doc marten shoes that were killing my feet. Before I realised they were the problem I thought I was developing arthritis.
― calzino, Wednesday, 29 August 2018 10:48 (five years ago) link
Waking up late and shooting out of bed like a rocket, thinking, 'yikes...gotta jump into the shower!', which leads to a spirited reinterpretation of Nilsson's 'Jump Into the Fire' under the nozzle's spray...yeah, I'm probably fine.
And as I wash, I idly wonder if the cancer I definitely positively almost certainly have (nb, I have no reason to believe that I am actually cancer-stricken) is located in the part of my body I'm currently washing, consider that it might well have spread to all the parts, ponder whether I'll seek treatment or let it consume me slowly or find a considerate way to off myself which will spare my loved ones undue grief...yeah, I'm maybe not fine.
And then I'm out of the shower and brushing my teeth and I improvise the line 'we can wash each other cleanly' as I continue my fun new song into my makeshift toothbrush microphone...I think I'm going to be just fine.
― Blag Blingeeborp (Old Lunch), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 12:03 (five years ago) link
The dichotomy of me is illustrated by how long it took to decide between “how about fuck you” and “don’t worry about me, are you OK?”
― El Tomboto, Wednesday, 29 August 2018 12:15 (five years ago) link
I don't think those options are necessarily mutually exclusive.
― Blag Blingeeborp (Old Lunch), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 12:18 (five years ago) link
So I sit up late in the morningAnd ask myself againHow do they kill children?And why do I want to die?They can no longer moveI can no longer be still
I hateMy way
But I'm fine
― Just eat a hamburger, it'll hit the spot. (Old Lunch), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 13:10 (five years ago) link