Don't worry about me. Are you okay? <--- this will always be my answer
― wayne trotsky (Simon H.), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 06:11 (five years ago) link
I've never been better, am fine, not so fine and miserable simultaneously. Twas ever thus. It's like Vic Chesnutt sings:
I'm keeping it on the roadI'm keeping it on the roadCan't say I didn't rattle the loadBut I'm keeping it on the road
― lbi's life of limitless european glamour (Le Bateau Ivre), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 07:14 (five years ago) link
I’m medium by dint of extremes balancing out, but at least there haven’t been so many low extremes lately! It’s been about a year since I last did anything really self-destructive, and I feel much more in control. Ditched ineffective publishing career at 29, and feeling much better having returned to uni to study child psychotherapy. It felt like an impossible sea change at the time, especially with no money, but good support and willpower won through. Oh and being in therapy for five years has gradually accumulated a great deal of good. If anyone is considering it but worried about the cost, I’d recommend looking around to see if any therapists keep open ‘low income’ slots, as many do.
As for self-expectations about all the other many dreams I’ve had, I’m trying to give phantasy some credit. Like, maybe imagining some of these things is a good enough placeholder for experiencing them, and maybe I can vicariously enjoy other outcomes through students, or indeed Gilmore Girls. (Though I’m not sure what that dream would be...I’ve probably wanted to run a hotel at some point)
Pessoa is the best.
― tangenttangent, Wednesday, 29 August 2018 08:13 (five years ago) link
ever since i came to accept that the apocalypse actually did happen in 2012 i've been... adequate
― my dream is to never be a champion (bizarro gazzara), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 08:51 (five years ago) link
just dropping in to confirm that im actually fine not american fine or british weather fine
― flaneur brayin (darraghmac), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 10:23 (five years ago) link
I'm finer since I stopped wearing these horrible 2nd hand doc marten shoes that were killing my feet. Before I realised they were the problem I thought I was developing arthritis.
― calzino, Wednesday, 29 August 2018 10:48 (five years ago) link
Waking up late and shooting out of bed like a rocket, thinking, 'yikes...gotta jump into the shower!', which leads to a spirited reinterpretation of Nilsson's 'Jump Into the Fire' under the nozzle's spray...yeah, I'm probably fine.
And as I wash, I idly wonder if the cancer I definitely positively almost certainly have (nb, I have no reason to believe that I am actually cancer-stricken) is located in the part of my body I'm currently washing, consider that it might well have spread to all the parts, ponder whether I'll seek treatment or let it consume me slowly or find a considerate way to off myself which will spare my loved ones undue grief...yeah, I'm maybe not fine.
And then I'm out of the shower and brushing my teeth and I improvise the line 'we can wash each other cleanly' as I continue my fun new song into my makeshift toothbrush microphone...I think I'm going to be just fine.
― Blag Blingeeborp (Old Lunch), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 12:03 (five years ago) link
The dichotomy of me is illustrated by how long it took to decide between “how about fuck you” and “don’t worry about me, are you OK?”
― El Tomboto, Wednesday, 29 August 2018 12:15 (five years ago) link
I don't think those options are necessarily mutually exclusive.
― Blag Blingeeborp (Old Lunch), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 12:18 (five years ago) link
So I sit up late in the morningAnd ask myself againHow do they kill children?And why do I want to die?They can no longer moveI can no longer be still
I hateMy way
But I'm fine
― Just eat a hamburger, it'll hit the spot. (Old Lunch), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 13:10 (five years ago) link
Now as I stumbleAnd reel to my bedAll that I've doneAll that I've saidMeans nothin' to meI'd soon as be deadAll of this world be forgottenI'm though thanks for asking
― a roomba of one's own (rip van wanko), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 13:12 (five years ago) link
oops forgot "fine"
― a roomba of one's own (rip van wanko), Wednesday, 29 August 2018 13:13 (five years ago) link
I'm fine pic.twitter.com/LUj8ly287Q— Mia Farrow (@MiaFarrow) July 23, 2017
― rip van wanko, Thursday, 30 August 2018 19:05 (five years ago) link
Yes, that feels about right. Hello, friend, welcome to my house, make yourself at home. Me? I'm fine. Just fine. Thank you for asking. Would you like something to drink? I have 427 cans of Barq's root beer. If that's not enough, I have another 1,917 cans of Barq's root beer stored in the cabinets, more out in the garage. What? No, like I said before, I'm really doing quite fine.
― Just eat a hamburger, it'll hit the spot. (Old Lunch), Thursday, 30 August 2018 19:11 (five years ago) link
Oh, you're hungry? Well, I refilled the ice cube trays with Barq's root beer a little while ago so you can munch on those if you like. Otherwise we'll have to go out. Or, well, can you go by yourself? I don't like to leave my Barq's root beer alone for long. I really don't know why you keep asking how I'm doing.
― Just eat a hamburger, it'll hit the spot. (Old Lunch), Thursday, 30 August 2018 19:15 (five years ago) link
Can I at least have a Hebrew National hot dog?
― faculty w1fe (silby), Thursday, 30 August 2018 19:18 (five years ago) link
Well...I suppose. They're seven years old, but help yourself.
― Just eat a hamburger, it'll hit the spot. (Old Lunch), Thursday, 30 August 2018 19:21 (five years ago) link
https://frinkiac.com/video/S06E06/tcVCEMxsDgns3shX8RUgXXD3MfQ=.gif
― jmm, Thursday, 30 August 2018 20:06 (five years ago) link
I wasn't really fine when I saw this poll ... since then I think I've figured out that caffeine was doing me in. 3-4 hours of the work day in the worst possible mood then bam, it's over and I'm fine. And the culprit was apparently a pot of green tea.
― Uhura Mazda (lukas), Thursday, 30 August 2018 20:14 (five years ago) link
As long as words are available, I'm fine. They often aren't.
― pomenitul, Thursday, 30 August 2018 20:19 (five years ago) link
let me qualify what I just said about "worst possible mood"
― Uhura Mazda (lukas), Thursday, 30 August 2018 20:22 (five years ago) link
Automatic thread bump. This poll is closing tomorrow.
― System, Friday, 30 November 2018 00:01 (five years ago) link
Automatic thread bump. This poll's results are now in.
― System, Saturday, 1 December 2018 00:01 (five years ago) link
I know you not fine, but how you doin'?
― Οὖτις, Saturday, 1 December 2018 00:06 (five years ago) link
I'm feeling more fine than I was when I started this poll, but that's only because I have yet to notice the slavering beast crouched behind me. I mean, okay, obviously I've already noticed it, but it seems so invested in catching me off guard that I'm trying to maintain the pretense of ignorance. What has the world come to if we can't extend a small kindness to the thing that is soon to devour us, I ask you.
This is quite fine. Quite fine.
― all lite up and very romatic (Old Lunch), Saturday, 1 December 2018 00:21 (five years ago) link
Nevermind Are You Fine, the real question is What’s the Latest
― calstars, Saturday, 1 December 2018 01:49 (five years ago) link
Okay, weird, I felt an urge to revive this because I've been feeling a little less fine of late and didn't realize that I'd initiated this almost exactly a year ago. Maybe the season induces a dip in one's fineness quotient. But it's kind of like all of the constituent pieces of me are on this slow drifting path away from their core and with a degree of vigilance I'm able to snatch them before they get too far and pull them back into place but it seems like the pace is picking up a bit these days and the odds increasing that one or more of these pieces will slip through my fingers before I can get a firm grip and, well, what happens then? And it feels a little more every day like other people are heading in this same direction so it's not even like I can utilize the unassailable centeredness of others as a point of focus. It feels like the heat death of human civilization and identity, a very slow and nearly imperceptible yet incessantly progressive process. But if you turn the music up a little louder, maybe utilize one of the many screens at our disposal to look at something busy and flashy or maybe involving cute little animals, it's still somewhat easy to pretend that things are fine and that I am fine, as well. I'm pretty sure that's someone else screaming, not sure who.
― Time to Make a Pizza Pact! (Old Lunch), Tuesday, 3 September 2019 16:23 (four years ago) link
I am foine
― brigadier pudding (DJP), Tuesday, 3 September 2019 16:24 (four years ago) link
I know you fine, but how you doin?
― Οὖτις, Tuesday, 3 September 2019 16:26 (four years ago) link
good good
― brigadier pudding (DJP), Tuesday, 3 September 2019 16:29 (four years ago) link
I want to say I'm fine but I really should check with myself before speaking on his behalf.
― Time to Make a Pizza Pact! (Old Lunch), Tuesday, 3 September 2019 16:30 (four years ago) link
was fine, am fine
― president of deluded fruitcakes anonymous (silby), Tuesday, 3 September 2019 16:44 (four years ago) link
im great thanks
― flaneur brayin (darraghmac), Tuesday, 28 August 2018 16:42 (one year ago) bookmarkflaglink
― theRZA the JZA and the NDB (darraghmac), Tuesday, 3 September 2019 16:46 (four years ago) link
https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/en/5/5e/LikeARock_-_Seger.jpg
― Time to Make a Pizza Pact! (Old Lunch), Tuesday, 3 September 2019 16:50 (four years ago) link
most of my life is the struggle to get to a point when I remember that I'm fine
― ogmor, Tuesday, 3 September 2019 17:00 (four years ago) link
“How you doing”“I’m fine”“Yes you are”
― calstars, Tuesday, 3 September 2019 19:25 (four years ago) link
I told an acquaintance to go fuck a live bear yesterday and got aggro with an Executive at work today.
I am not fine.
― FUCK YOUR POTATO (Neanderthal), Tuesday, 3 September 2019 19:29 (four years ago) link
I dunno, a mind capable of conjuring up 'go fuck a live bear' would seem to have some hidden reserves of fineness that its user might not immediately recognize.
― Time to Make a Pizza Pact! (Old Lunch), Tuesday, 3 September 2019 19:32 (four years ago) link
good wingmanning for that bear IMO
― brigadier pudding (DJP), Tuesday, 3 September 2019 19:37 (four years ago) link
When I'm the least fine it's when I reflect on the fact that I am part of nobody's "core" friend circle- at best maybe an arm and a leg inside of one or two as far as I can tell? End up pity-partying pretty hard over that subject. Otherwise super fine!
― Evan, Tuesday, 3 September 2019 19:44 (four years ago) link
Irl looooool at DJP
― Joe Proroguin' (Noodle Vague), Tuesday, 3 September 2019 19:48 (four years ago) link
maybe he was hinting at playing Striking Vipers.
― Yerac, Tuesday, 3 September 2019 19:54 (four years ago) link
Lol DJP
I realized about three days ago that I am, for the first time since 2013, fine. I have been fine for most of August. I am thrilled that I am fine. If I can make it to the end of the day without a cigarette, then I’ll be past the frustrating phase.
The silver lining about being not fine for so long is that being fine again feels amazing and incredible. I ran 5km today. I’m nearly done arranging all this Julius Eastman for two harpsichords. I am renting a Jazz Chorus today for no reason. I did the fancy tooth care ritual instead of the normal brush and spit.
― flamboyant goon tie included, Tuesday, 3 September 2019 20:21 (four years ago) link
I am as fine as I was one or two or three or six years ago, which is to say not; the core problem is that the things that would have to happen in my life for me to be fine again are never going to happen, and there are still several decades left in which I will still be aware of that
― like, I’m eating an elephant head (katherine), Wednesday, 4 September 2019 03:08 (four years ago) link
Ba-bump
I am more fine than I would have expected to be on this particular date but I am less fine than I would like to be. There's like this shadow of a panic attack hovering just at the periphery of my vision and it keeps creeping just a little closer before backing off again. I wish it would stop fucking with me, if I'm perfectly honest.
Pretty sure, even if all goes relatively well and smoothly, it's going to be at least a week before I'll be able to declare myself truly fine.
How about you? Are you fine?
― OrificeMax (Old Lunch), Monday, 2 November 2020 17:16 (three years ago) link
I’m hanging in there. election + going through all these paperwork hoops starting a new job has got me pretty wired. Feeling pretty vulnerable. I’m ok, though.
― brimstead, Monday, 2 November 2020 17:48 (three years ago) link
I feel strangely calm, partially because I've finally started writing again, but mostly because I know that whatever happens in the next 60 hours will happen no matter what I do.
― Christine Green Leafy Dragon Indigo, Monday, 2 November 2020 17:49 (three years ago) link
more irritable than usual and incapable of my best concentration, but that's just because of the election.
― the unappreciated charisma of cows (Aimless), Monday, 2 November 2020 18:22 (three years ago) link
Was gonna say, you know there's a general sourness of spirit when the generally sanguine likes of you and clemenza start to get overtly rankled 'round these parts.
― OrificeMax (Old Lunch), Monday, 2 November 2020 19:05 (three years ago) link
just listened to the matt mcconaughey episode of maron, so to quote the man himself and borrow his legendary turn of phrase: "I am fine."
― The Beige of Dadz (Sufjan Grafton), Monday, 2 November 2020 19:21 (three years ago) link