Are You Fine?

Irl looooool at DJP

maybe he was hinting at playing Striking Vipers.

Lol DJP

I realized about three days ago that I am, for the first time since 2013, fine. I have been fine for most of August. I am thrilled that I am fine. If I can make it to the end of the day without a cigarette, then I’ll be past the frustrating phase.

The silver lining about being not fine for so long is that being fine again feels amazing and incredible. I ran 5km today. I’m nearly done arranging all this Julius Eastman for two harpsichords. I am renting a Jazz Chorus today for no reason. I did the fancy tooth care ritual instead of the normal brush and spit.

I am as fine as I was one or two or three or six years ago, which is to say not; the core problem is that the things that would have to happen in my life for me to be fine again are never going to happen, and there are still several decades left in which I will still be aware of that

Ba-bump

I am more fine than I would have expected to be on this particular date but I am less fine than I would like to be. There's like this shadow of a panic attack hovering just at the periphery of my vision and it keeps creeping just a little closer before backing off again. I wish it would stop fucking with me, if I'm perfectly honest.

Pretty sure, even if all goes relatively well and smoothly, it's going to be at least a week before I'll be able to declare myself truly fine.

How about you? Are you fine?

I’m hanging in there. election + going through all these paperwork hoops starting a new job has got me pretty wired. Feeling pretty vulnerable. I’m ok, though.

I feel strangely calm, partially because I've finally started writing again, but mostly because I know that whatever happens in the next 60 hours will happen no matter what I do.

more irritable than usual and incapable of my best concentration, but that's just because of the election.

Was gonna say, you know there's a general sourness of spirit when the generally sanguine likes of you and clemenza start to get overtly rankled 'round these parts.

just listened to the matt mcconaughey episode of maron, so to quote the man himself and borrow his legendary turn of phrase: "I am fine."

i'm fine. don't want to be at work tho

congrats on the new job brimstead

I just ctrl-fed "foine" and decided I need new jokes

There are plenty of dad jokes available, guaranteed to be endlessly recyclable.

Hungover on my day off...getting really tired of losing time / days to sleep when I could be enjoying my time off. Also left a wheel of brie on the counter overnight

ty map <3

glad to be (virtually) around all you fine folks in this fucked up time <3