Love Letters for Fall: LGBTQIA+ // 2020

I had a perfectly low-key weekend and was overdue for it tbh.

Is it too early to start watching horror movies for Halloween?

I had gay sex! It was good, if you haven’t tried it yet I recommend it

Also I watched a couple of horror faves this week— The Descent, Let The Right One In

OK it sounds like you’re reacclimating which is good. Bound to be loads of emotions. Now when you say dinner, what do you mean exactly? Lol. Like outdoor dining?

― surm, Wednesday, September 23, 2020

Oh yeah. I haven't seen the inside of a restaurant or man since March.

We legit drank beer, got high, and made beats and watched Star Trek Voyager all weekend.

I married the right man in other words lol

Omg
U make beats!?
Ummmmmm also THE DESCENT
all . time . fav .

Definitely not too soon for the Halloween flicks

Yeah! I love The Descent. I love Dog Soldiers, too, "I'm the original bitch from hell" moment aside. I really wish Neil Marshall had kept making amazing movies

Still on the sick list, and not drinking (also not my choice).

i've been sober for six months and i'm at a point where i miss getting drunk but i can't go back tbh. i went to a friend's party on saturday night - we were the first people to get there at 8:30 and i begged off at 10:15. this is because i get up at 5:30 on weekdays and fuck man i hate staying up later than 10 it ruins me.

i slept more than 14 hours saturday night and sunday, it was amazing.

my first sexual experience was as a college student in New Hampshire. I was staying at the farmhouse of one of my professors who lived across the river in Vermont. I went down to the lake below the house and a hot guy was swimming naked there. He asked me to take off my swimsuit so he could try it on. I knew it was a provocative request but I was mesmerized by him and complied, and he showed himself off for me, stuffing himself into my trunks

at his direction we back into the bushes and got off together. it was innocent, and he wasn’t much more experienced than me,
but it was super hot

wow!

I adore stories that, depending on the telling, would be just as at home in a queer YA novel as in a gay porn film.

going to be spending christmas with my boyfriend in palm springs at one of the older clothing-optional places and am very much looking forward to it. no children!!!

Um. Call me crazy, but there will probably still be a pandemic then, right?

yes

Palm Springs seems like a utopia to me, I have memories of great experiences there

ftr i think we can do it reasonably safely. the resort is like 10 rooms, they don't do day passes, we're going to be keeping to ourselves or socializing from a distance in the outdoor pool area. not going to get up close and personal with anybody. we're driving there. not going out to any bars or anything because i don't drink. we might drive to the beach for a day trip.

i've had mixed experiences in palm springs, mostly due to my own instabilities, but am coming around to the fact that i really do love being around other aging bougie gays every once in a while and wouldn't mind being "that couple" who goes yearly. it's relatively affordable and close. and NO KIDS. i live in utah, they are everywhere all the time.

My dad's cousin just moved to Palm Springs. He's, I think, 53 years old and I am sort of annoyed he's there FT that early in life.

map, I'm sorry my post was a bit bitchy! I totally get it. Hell, I'm going camping next week with a few friends.

I guess for some reason I just associate Palm Springs with getting all my holes filled multiple times a day lol.

haha no i get it, no worries, sorry my "yes" was also a little bitchy ;)

Hi queers

Life has been fairly plain, my boyfriend and I a bit of a rough spot recently where he broke one of the rules of our open relationship and was defensively unapologetic abt it because he didn’t remember agreeing to the rule and didn’t understand the point of it, but we had a very nice long discussion about it a few days ago and I was able to explain it in a way he (finally) understood and he was v understanding and apologetic and we are in a much better place

We’ve been together for... 2.5 years?? And I think the distance is becoming more challenging (him in Boston and me in Philly and one of us visiting the other roughly once a month), and is at sort of an impasse where neither of us “can” (read: are willing to) move to the other’s city or to a new one, logistically it would be incredibly challenging for either of us in a way that could very likely tank the relationship. So we’re just continuing on, though I sense he feels like we’ve grown to the fullest extent that we can from afar and we can’t really get closer staying this far apart, like a “what are we doing/where do we go” type thing.

A month or two ago he got really depressed and was pushing me away a bit, and speaking really fatalistically in a way that suggested he didn’t know how to move forward and wanted to break things off, it fucked me up really hard and I basically processed it like an actual breakup, like really seriously head-on coming to terms with what it would be like to be single again, how we would decouple, what life would be like without him as a romantic partner, etc., so even though things are back on track and great, I’ve already sort of grieved our breakup in a way where if things really are on the outs and this isn’t sustainable, I am in a much, much better place to process it should it occur. We’ve also reaffirmed our deep love for each other and desire to remain close no matter what, which also helps.

So I am feeling quite zen about it, I hope and expect we’ll stay together for a while but I understand reasons why we may not and am prepared for that if it happens

I’ve been listening to a fuckton of Underground Resistance/The Martian/etc, playing Okami for PS2, and working my way through my list of horror films for October, which I already started like a week ago (Pulse was excellent and truly horrifying, Inferno was such a special delight, Ghostwatch was fun, Evil Dead 2 was so good and I cannot believe I’ve never seen it before, and the first 3 Friday the 13ths are truly garbage). I also started a new job a few months ago which despite some challenges continues to be largely wonderful and incredibly gratifying

hi, Stevie!

Hi Stevie! Have been hoping you've been doing okay.

Hi queers, I'm just popping in briefly because I think I have the best chance of catching FGTI here, and I don't want to derail a thread that's back on topic again.

FGTI, I'm sorry I brought up a ton of overly personal stuff WRT fandom and stuff, that was out of line for me.

You stepped on a sore spot for me, and I didn't try hard enough to be kind, I just stepped on a sore spot right back. That's re-brought-up unpleasantness for several people, and that wasn't right of me. I apologise.

Hope you are doing OK.

Hi queers! Hi Branwell and no it's no sweat!

Yesterday I went to a Titty Chop party (my friend is getting his tits cut off next week). Everyone in their bubble has diverse dietary restrictions, so I made FOUR LASAGNAS so that all diets were respected. It was my first time making either meat-free bolognese and/or dairy-free bechamel/parmesan. It all went great-- even the "ethical lasagna" tasted really nice. Also, my cooking was efficient, I love that for me

Titty Chop! Of all the euphemisms I've heard, that's one of the best.

'4 queers = 4 different diets' is so Queer Life 2020s. Meat-free bolognese was a great challenge you rose to well.

Like 90% of my queer friends are vegans, but the queerest thing I did all week was treat myself to a new leather... suit. Because life is short and death is certain and god knows when any of us are getting laid again so one might as well *feel* sexy while one can? But I think that my friends are usually quite torn between 'must not kink shame, ever' and also 'your kink is... DEATH. You are wearing DEATH, that is so un-vegan and not-queer' and I find that kinda funny in a shameful way LOL oh dear

Yeah, like, "hey vegans you'll catch more flies with honey than vinegar" except then you remember honey isn't vegan.

hey vegans you’ll catch more flies with certified fair-trade agave nectar than vinegar

That reminds me that I want to make this vegan bol-nyay-zay recipe

https://www.seriouseats.com/recipes/2014/02/pasta-rich-hearty-mushroom-bolognese-recipe.html

fuck
I just saw tza’s FB post abt Morbz
I feel lucky to have met him
He had a wonderful and genuine soul.
RIP Morbz, you will live on with us
Fuck.

I treasure the moment at Julius'.

I also remember fondly my last meeting with him...which was at Julius, but not with any of you. Very sad this morning.

When I was new to the board and going under a different username, I would lurk the gay threads (as they were called at the time) sheepishly waiting for a point where I could jump in to what was observably a tight-knit group. When I finally got up the nerve to post, Morbs responded with a delightfully raunchy greeting, complete with an image that I'm sure tested some community guidelines. I'll always remember that.

💜
Despite his groucho reputation, he was a man of heart. I always felt that from him

just heard about morbz on Twitter via Alfred’s eulogy(?remembrance?) and felt compelled to drop in even though I haven’t been a regular here in forever.

fuck cancer
RIP Morbz
Love to all of you wonderful queers xx

I’ve basically just been working a lot from home and then not from home and now from home again and living in queerantine and interacting mostly with my cat.

can’t tell if I’m being overcautious but diabetes and COVID aren’t something one wants to mix together so even though I miss hanging out with queers and friends and am more constantly conscious of how single I am than I’ve been in years, it’s probably for the best. but whenever this is over the stir crazy self isolation might finally prompt me to start dating again after avoiding it for way too long.

anyway I finally remembered what Zing was called and downloaded it to my new phone so I guess I’m back

yay I'm glad you're back
I blinked w emotion to see you posting here tbh, hi Alex

The odd thing that I loved about Morbs, and I told Stevie abt it over text was that it seemed as if he was always, always pulling the hottest men, even when he was starting to get sick he was still getting some

Hi Alex. Really nice to see you

Xp that is amazing
A life 2 aspire to
Alex!! Hi old friend

welcome back, Alex. A delight.

[Edited out anything negative I was feeling and typing] I made really nice vegetarian sausage-pepper tagliatelle for a dude I've been seeing, he is having a really hard sad day so I told him a funny joke. Here's the joke:

Man 1: Hey, guess what I have in my pocket
Man 2: Nah I don't wanna play this game
Man 1: Oh come on, I'll give you a hint, it begins with the letter N
Man 2: Hm. Let me think. Is it a napple?
Man 1: No, it's not a napple
Man 2: Is it a norange?
Man 1: No, not a norange, either
Man 2: OK, hmm... is it a nonion?
Man 1: Nope, wrong again
Man 2: Well, I'm just never gonna guess it. What is it?
Man 1: It's a negg

Wait am i being stupid for not getting it??!?

That pasta sounds amazing....

Joke might be funnier when you hear it from the original source:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ywezlvr60q0&t=11m0s

Instances of smoldering anger have subsided significantly as the pandemic has gone on, to be frank. There just isn't as much to be upset about, and anything I am upset about seems pretty insignificant.

Yes pandemia is definitely beating trivialities and not-so-trivialities into submission for sure

Happy Thanksgiving’s eve sweetums
What’s the plan?

Happy Thanksgiving’s eve sweetums
What’s the plan?

IT’S ALMOST WINTER

I dreamed I bumped into a rather cute music writer whom I haven't met during normal times. I was better looking than he thought, for he kept flirting with me and I kept him swatting his comments aside, nervous about the girlfriend about to leave. When she left, we sat on the couch, and he said, "It's about time" and we start making out.

I'd forgotten the dream until I saw his photo on Instagram.

i was typing out a post about himbos of christmas past but i deleted it.

I had a dream the other night about two hook-ups I had many years ago. It was...something.

i got heated last night / this morning remembering this guy, his name was bl4k3 y3l4v1ch, who i hooked up with in the showers at a 24 hour fitness. he was like 6'3, built like a linebacker with a gigantic schlong. that was going to be my himbos of christmas past post and now i guess it's been resurrected. anyway it was fun to reminisce about him with my boyfriend, it turns out we're both in the bl4k3 y3l4v1ch club, but he took him in a sling at a sex party. anyway!!

Uh, you mean the erotic photographer who takes photos of musclebound twinks and leather cowboys?

hahahahaha

i didn't know he was so well known

read that sentence as "I didn't know he was so well hung."

lol, i definitely knew that part

map, I used to model in pr0n, I know everyone's names.

or at least, their "stage" names lol

haha, that's awesome

i wish we were at some kind of party and i could press you for stories.

anyway, the bf is on the same page as me wrt not celebrating christmas, so it's basically a 5 day long break for me, which i'm really looking forward to. wishing all the readers of this thread peace and all that (and if you don't like xmas as much as i don't like it, it will be over soon). take care of yourselves!

Likewise, map. Someday!

best to you and the bf.

thanks table, to you and yours too

Glad to hear from you all, I trust you are all on your way to a restful New Year’s! We’ll debate who starts the winter thread in due time 💋💋💋

This is my second year in a row spending Christmas with no family! But also my second year in a row doing a breakneck scoring job for a Sundance submission, so I think it'll be easier this year.

Oh I don't have much gay to report. I've been thinking about how gay men act shitty and then accuse people of "slut shaming" them when they are told they've been acting shitty. If you are trying to fuck my boyfriend behind my back, i.e., you're not being a slut! you're just being shitty! shame on you! I am shit-shaming you, not slut-shaming you

lol otm

I need to remember what "boyfriend," "slut-shaming," and, especially, "gay men" mean next year.

I need to remember what lol and otm mean next year.

Omg don’t get me started on slut shaming
Shit shaming otm

Who wants to start a winter thread?