Love Letters for Fall: LGBTQIA+ // 2020

🤪 what’s funny is that I just finished a song about how I’m falling for a guy but I know deep down it’s too soon, it was a fictional piece but looks like I made my nightmares come true

Wassup tonight mappy

I've always had a really hard time reading the people that I've been interested in. In retrospect it seems like there's a fine line between over-eagerness and dismissal and I feel like I've so often been on the wrong side of that line on both sides

you seem grounded surm

💙 I totally understand what you’re saying, and I gotta tell you that being grounded is not a familiar feeling to me so I’m enjoying it while it lasts

I think my own projection often obscured a real understanding of where the person I was interested in was coming from. I wish I had realized that then, it would have been helpful

You’re walking around in my brain. I know that now but boy did I fuck that up way too many times

Very angry at my guy right now, he's being an absolute asshole, just need to type that here to get it out! Please continue scrolling.

Noooooo! You’re definitely not the only one who’s getting into fights with their loved ones. You guys able to resolve things?

gl table

my cat is snuggling with me on the couch atm

I can’t believe I don’t have a dog or a cat in my life right now

Snuggling with the pup.

Everything okay here. Just had to hash it out.

Oh good so glad
I will say that’s one of the things I do not miss about being in a couple, those fights wd tear me apart
But it is worth it for the right person 🤩

my third ltr is proving to be the least fight-y

Excellent. I was just thinking today if I happen to wind up in a relationship again it will be my number one goal to not have shouting matches

Hardly ever shouting matches, tbh. Mostly just little disagreements and smoldering anger and processing.

same here

although...i did actually scream in the heat of an intense talk last week. tbh i've had a lot of smoldering anger about a lot of things lately and haven't really had an outlet for it and it all just sorta bubbled up to the surface. i don't feel great admitting it, and i still feel shitty about having done it.

I'm in a good (avoidant) place with regard to fighting, but part of it is probably due to my being on absolute pins and anxious needles for the last 10 months.

Had good sex today tho, fwiw.

Nice!! Honeymooners u

JG don’t beat yourself up. I’ve been there way too many times to count. Be kind to yourself and let yourself process why you think it got there, it’ll take a couple of days.

Instances of smoldering anger have subsided significantly as the pandemic has gone on, to be frank. There just isn't as much to be upset about, and anything I am upset about seems pretty insignificant.

Yes pandemia is definitely beating trivialities and not-so-trivialities into submission for sure

Happy Thanksgiving’s eve sweetums
What’s the plan?

Happy Thanksgiving’s eve sweetums
What’s the plan?

IT’S ALMOST WINTER

I dreamed I bumped into a rather cute music writer whom I haven't met during normal times. I was better looking than he thought, for he kept flirting with me and I kept him swatting his comments aside, nervous about the girlfriend about to leave. When she left, we sat on the couch, and he said, "It's about time" and we start making out.

I'd forgotten the dream until I saw his photo on Instagram.

i was typing out a post about himbos of christmas past but i deleted it.

I had a dream the other night about two hook-ups I had many years ago. It was...something.

i got heated last night / this morning remembering this guy, his name was bl4k3 y3l4v1ch, who i hooked up with in the showers at a 24 hour fitness. he was like 6'3, built like a linebacker with a gigantic schlong. that was going to be my himbos of christmas past post and now i guess it's been resurrected. anyway it was fun to reminisce about him with my boyfriend, it turns out we're both in the bl4k3 y3l4v1ch club, but he took him in a sling at a sex party. anyway!!

Uh, you mean the erotic photographer who takes photos of musclebound twinks and leather cowboys?

hahahahaha

i didn't know he was so well known

read that sentence as "I didn't know he was so well hung."

lol, i definitely knew that part

map, I used to model in pr0n, I know everyone's names.

or at least, their "stage" names lol

haha, that's awesome

i wish we were at some kind of party and i could press you for stories.

anyway, the bf is on the same page as me wrt not celebrating christmas, so it's basically a 5 day long break for me, which i'm really looking forward to. wishing all the readers of this thread peace and all that (and if you don't like xmas as much as i don't like it, it will be over soon). take care of yourselves!

Likewise, map. Someday!

best to you and the bf.

thanks table, to you and yours too

Glad to hear from you all, I trust you are all on your way to a restful New Year’s! We’ll debate who starts the winter thread in due time 💋💋💋

This is my second year in a row spending Christmas with no family! But also my second year in a row doing a breakneck scoring job for a Sundance submission, so I think it'll be easier this year.

Oh I don't have much gay to report. I've been thinking about how gay men act shitty and then accuse people of "slut shaming" them when they are told they've been acting shitty. If you are trying to fuck my boyfriend behind my back, i.e., you're not being a slut! you're just being shitty! shame on you! I am shit-shaming you, not slut-shaming you

lol otm

I need to remember what "boyfriend," "slut-shaming," and, especially, "gay men" mean next year.

I need to remember what lol and otm mean next year.

Omg don’t get me started on slut shaming
Shit shaming otm

Who wants to start a winter thread?